hello!
was prompted by a friend to update.
well, seriously, i don't know where to start.
it's been too long since i've update, so thr's many things i've missed out.
today is the 1st day working in the ward aft such a long time of lectures.
i felt quite happy and welcomed by the staff.
i'm still figuring out many things along the way, both work & r/s w ppl.
i'm thankful enough for friends to hear me out, to pray and assure me.
I jus saw on tv abt taboos- abt female bodybuilders, abt an indian festival whr males will dress as females to b married to their gods, abt female wrestlers.
several reasons- they want to be different; they want to feel confident; they want to be strong; they want to feel accepted, belonged and loved; they want blessings fr.
their gods; they feel closer to god.
isn't that what everybody wants?
yet, if those are really the measure of human's confident, acceptance, belonging and blessings,
then, one earthquake, one cyclone, one tornado, one tsunami,
all will be gone.
If ever you are in such times and your heart is still beating and your pulse is still pulsating, it means God hasn't give up on you yet and you don't have to give up on yourself. He's still waiting to love you, accept you, and bless you, only with your permission. Before you say all is gone, think again.
Sth fr Max Lucado, Facing the Giants, "You will never know Jesus is all you need until He is all you have."
God is too good to be unkind,
God is too wise to be confused,
When I cannot trace His hand,
I can always trust His heart.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
its been a fun day today!
enjoyed playing games with freshmen! So full of enthusiasm!
i was once like them too but i wasnt enthu at all.
but today i was quite ENTHU!!
HAHA. well, God has His divine plan and purpose for me to be there ba.
A few days ago I was reflecting and I jus praise God for all that He has done in my life.
I remembered in year one, I was like any other freshmen, feeling quite excited about poly life. I wanted to study hard and join a fun CCA. I was a Sunday Christian then too, who was only satisfied by my church attendance. I never thought of being in campus crusade, never thought that I could have great faith, never thought that I can have such intimacy with God, never even thought that God could use me. During clubcrawl, I signed up for many CCAs except campus crusade. However, someone by the name of serena called me and invited me for campus crusade welcome tea. Then, I remembered I filled in a survey form outside macdonalds. Though I wasn’t very keen cos none of my clique are Christians but I decided to jus take a look. Well, the welcome tea wasn’t very fun. I thought it was quite boring. Since then, I didn’t go for their weekly meetings. But thank God, I was still connected to campus crusade thru serena, who bcame my bible study grp leader. Her sincerity was what attracted me to her. She was more than a bible study grp leader but also like a friend to me. A friend that is genuine and real in sharing her life with you, a friend that is patiently listening when you talk to her. A friend that will pray for you and encourage you. So, about December that year, she informed me about a camp called the metamorphosis and encouraged me to go. I didn’t really wanted to go cos I am not realy close to the ppl in campus crusade except serena who wasn’t going then. To cut the long story short, by God’s divine plan, I was there at the camp. After the camp, two perspective changed. One, crusade was no longer a boring CCA but a fun and enriching one. God used the camp to be real and intimate with me again. Two, I can be someone who truly follows Jesus and impact people around me, especially in NYP whom I spent most of my time in. I was particularly encouraged by one crusader from SP who shared how God used him to intercede and lead his classmates to Christ. About 3 months later, I went for a mission trip. My faith was stretched as I trust Him for things beyond myself. My confidence in Him grew as I experienced Him as a God who supply all my needs, who loved me for who I am, who time and again pick me up when I fall, and also someone who can use me despite my weaknesses. From then on, I am able to trust God with more and more things, knowing that He is able to do all things. About the end of year 2, God led me to minister in ppl's life, leading someone out of depression. Today, I am convinced by God that I am a child of light in this crooked and perverse generation among whom I can shine like stars simply because of all the experiences that God brought me through of knowing Him and His love for me and every single person on this earth. As I grow closer to God, I know that He wants to love people like how Christ loved me. Hurting people, lost people, people who are despised and rejects of the world. God loved them all. I thank God for campus crusade for He has used a big part of their labor to transform me. :)
enjoyed playing games with freshmen! So full of enthusiasm!
i was once like them too but i wasnt enthu at all.
but today i was quite ENTHU!!
HAHA. well, God has His divine plan and purpose for me to be there ba.
A few days ago I was reflecting and I jus praise God for all that He has done in my life.
I remembered in year one, I was like any other freshmen, feeling quite excited about poly life. I wanted to study hard and join a fun CCA. I was a Sunday Christian then too, who was only satisfied by my church attendance. I never thought of being in campus crusade, never thought that I could have great faith, never thought that I can have such intimacy with God, never even thought that God could use me. During clubcrawl, I signed up for many CCAs except campus crusade. However, someone by the name of serena called me and invited me for campus crusade welcome tea. Then, I remembered I filled in a survey form outside macdonalds. Though I wasn’t very keen cos none of my clique are Christians but I decided to jus take a look. Well, the welcome tea wasn’t very fun. I thought it was quite boring. Since then, I didn’t go for their weekly meetings. But thank God, I was still connected to campus crusade thru serena, who bcame my bible study grp leader. Her sincerity was what attracted me to her. She was more than a bible study grp leader but also like a friend to me. A friend that is genuine and real in sharing her life with you, a friend that is patiently listening when you talk to her. A friend that will pray for you and encourage you. So, about December that year, she informed me about a camp called the metamorphosis and encouraged me to go. I didn’t really wanted to go cos I am not realy close to the ppl in campus crusade except serena who wasn’t going then. To cut the long story short, by God’s divine plan, I was there at the camp. After the camp, two perspective changed. One, crusade was no longer a boring CCA but a fun and enriching one. God used the camp to be real and intimate with me again. Two, I can be someone who truly follows Jesus and impact people around me, especially in NYP whom I spent most of my time in. I was particularly encouraged by one crusader from SP who shared how God used him to intercede and lead his classmates to Christ. About 3 months later, I went for a mission trip. My faith was stretched as I trust Him for things beyond myself. My confidence in Him grew as I experienced Him as a God who supply all my needs, who loved me for who I am, who time and again pick me up when I fall, and also someone who can use me despite my weaknesses. From then on, I am able to trust God with more and more things, knowing that He is able to do all things. About the end of year 2, God led me to minister in ppl's life, leading someone out of depression. Today, I am convinced by God that I am a child of light in this crooked and perverse generation among whom I can shine like stars simply because of all the experiences that God brought me through of knowing Him and His love for me and every single person on this earth. As I grow closer to God, I know that He wants to love people like how Christ loved me. Hurting people, lost people, people who are despised and rejects of the world. God loved them all. I thank God for campus crusade for He has used a big part of their labor to transform me. :)
Friday, April 18, 2008
i like to cry silently when i'm sad.
i like to laugh out loud when i'm happy.
Man can only see my facade.
You saw both. You looked deep into my heart.
Have you ever loved someone so much but that person never reciprocate?
I did. It hurts real bad.
Have you ever feel like you can't be real because you can't be loved and accepted for who you are?
I did. It's hard. It's uncomfortable.
All of a sudden, I missed my recent MT team alot.
I felt true love and acceptance.
I can be free and speak without fear.
Everyone was real.
God, why am I feeling this way? I know I'm accepted and loved by You but the feeling is so real, I can't talk myself out of it.
"You've just experienced the cry of one that needs love and acceptance. I hurt as much as they do. They hurt as much as what you are hurting now. You've experienced My perfect love that drives out all fear. Will you bring My love to those who need it so much?"
That hurt was taken away.
It felt like a dream. A dream with real feelings that you can still remember.
God, I thank You that i can be real before you. My deepest hurt was only seen by You. No matter how ugly I looked when I cry, I don't need to cover my face. My tears can flow freely before You. Thanks for Your love and acceptance. You are the only One who doesn't mind me being ugly. I don't even feel that I'm judged and put down when I asked You qns, when I tell You what's really in my heart. With Your patience and grace, You ans and You guided me in Your truth. You understand every bit of what I'm feeling. Thanks for being there silently and letting me cry all I want. Thanks for speaking too. Thank You for allowing me to feel a little of what you felt, a little bit of Your heart that I'll experience more and more as I grow closer to You. Thank You for the intimacy we share just between You and me. It is so precious. Let us be closer, not further cos I don't want to loose it. Let Your love flow thru me and lead me to ppl that You've always loved so much.
i like to laugh out loud when i'm happy.
Man can only see my facade.
You saw both. You looked deep into my heart.
Have you ever loved someone so much but that person never reciprocate?
I did. It hurts real bad.
Have you ever feel like you can't be real because you can't be loved and accepted for who you are?
I did. It's hard. It's uncomfortable.
All of a sudden, I missed my recent MT team alot.
I felt true love and acceptance.
I can be free and speak without fear.
Everyone was real.
God, why am I feeling this way? I know I'm accepted and loved by You but the feeling is so real, I can't talk myself out of it.
"You've just experienced the cry of one that needs love and acceptance. I hurt as much as they do. They hurt as much as what you are hurting now. You've experienced My perfect love that drives out all fear. Will you bring My love to those who need it so much?"
That hurt was taken away.
It felt like a dream. A dream with real feelings that you can still remember.
God, I thank You that i can be real before you. My deepest hurt was only seen by You. No matter how ugly I looked when I cry, I don't need to cover my face. My tears can flow freely before You. Thanks for Your love and acceptance. You are the only One who doesn't mind me being ugly. I don't even feel that I'm judged and put down when I asked You qns, when I tell You what's really in my heart. With Your patience and grace, You ans and You guided me in Your truth. You understand every bit of what I'm feeling. Thanks for being there silently and letting me cry all I want. Thanks for speaking too. Thank You for allowing me to feel a little of what you felt, a little bit of Your heart that I'll experience more and more as I grow closer to You. Thank You for the intimacy we share just between You and me. It is so precious. Let us be closer, not further cos I don't want to loose it. Let Your love flow thru me and lead me to ppl that You've always loved so much.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
replies to tags
Eddison: thanks for your well wishes and "compliment"! :)
charlie-ge: yo mortal. it's been really great having you in the team too! had so much fun with your great game ideas, programme and leading. i rem i LOL-ed playing blind mice cos of you and Jason (such a big person squeezing under the small table and chair, another squeezing into the small cupboard under the tv). besides the fun, i realised you've got such a tender heart for God and ppl. and like what bing always said, caring. *nods nods nods* i agree! Gd example to follow after. Continue to allow Christ life to flow thru you no matter where you are! (John 15:16). God is with you even at your boring workplace. keke. He knows exactly how you feel. :)
Louis: you've got internet connection? Anw, thanks. I am doing well. Lately there's so much hype and fun and crazy moments with my friends but beyond all that, I thank God more for the quiet moments where the Holy Spirit worked deep in my heart. Though there's many things that I feel I shouldnt do but did or should do but did not, all in all, I thank God for the godly sorrow that leads to repentance. Still I rejoice in the hope that He who had started a good work in me will carry on till the day of completion. (Phil 1:6) :) And that was the very same verse I text you. I really believe so for you as much as for me. I'm so amazed by the things you went thru, your family, struggles and all, each time God brought you thru, changing and moulding you. Even during the trip too. And there may be more to come (1 Peter 4:12). As much as you learnt from God, God made me learnt so much through your life too. Above all, His glory is unveiled through you, through me and the team. For when we are weak, He is strong! Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. (Romans 5:3-4) :)
Eddison: thanks for your well wishes and "compliment"! :)
charlie-ge: yo mortal. it's been really great having you in the team too! had so much fun with your great game ideas, programme and leading. i rem i LOL-ed playing blind mice cos of you and Jason (such a big person squeezing under the small table and chair, another squeezing into the small cupboard under the tv). besides the fun, i realised you've got such a tender heart for God and ppl. and like what bing always said, caring. *nods nods nods* i agree! Gd example to follow after. Continue to allow Christ life to flow thru you no matter where you are! (John 15:16). God is with you even at your boring workplace. keke. He knows exactly how you feel. :)
Louis: you've got internet connection? Anw, thanks. I am doing well. Lately there's so much hype and fun and crazy moments with my friends but beyond all that, I thank God more for the quiet moments where the Holy Spirit worked deep in my heart. Though there's many things that I feel I shouldnt do but did or should do but did not, all in all, I thank God for the godly sorrow that leads to repentance. Still I rejoice in the hope that He who had started a good work in me will carry on till the day of completion. (Phil 1:6) :) And that was the very same verse I text you. I really believe so for you as much as for me. I'm so amazed by the things you went thru, your family, struggles and all, each time God brought you thru, changing and moulding you. Even during the trip too. And there may be more to come (1 Peter 4:12). As much as you learnt from God, God made me learnt so much through your life too. Above all, His glory is unveiled through you, through me and the team. For when we are weak, He is strong! Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. (Romans 5:3-4) :)
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Friday, April 11, 2008
reply to sam:
I missed alot of things leh. I missed talking to you, the very heartfelt, deep, honest sharings between you, me and God just before we sleep. The confessions. The accountability. HAHAHA. I missed the prasie and worship together, esp the time when we sang, "how can i keep from singing Your praise, how can i ever say enough, how amazing is Your love", the times when I hear you sing, "Whenever I feel down, when everything seems wrong, such times, i feel i just can't go on anymore, when I remind myself of Him, He who can take away my cares, Jesus thanks for the faith I now have in you, Lord..." Our first reaction of the smelly toufu, kekeke and the delicous cuttlefish. And the funniest thing. The many, many times when we laughed out loud when yongjie thought his angel is you and louis thought his angel is me, the times of looking at the ladybird together, taking photo at the dangerous place which louis is so anxious of when you sat there. Our fav quiet place, bamboo shoot but later it was too cold we changed it to the milk tea shop. The times when we dance Never Give Up at the flagpole cos there was no one there. The times when we were washing clothes and praying together. Rap-walking with you, seeing the frog and laughing, feeling the wind thru our faces. Reminding each other to bring key and hp. HAHA. Experiencing the "unique" toilet. Buddy, I really missed you.
I missed alot of things leh. I missed talking to you, the very heartfelt, deep, honest sharings between you, me and God just before we sleep. The confessions. The accountability. HAHAHA. I missed the prasie and worship together, esp the time when we sang, "how can i keep from singing Your praise, how can i ever say enough, how amazing is Your love", the times when I hear you sing, "Whenever I feel down, when everything seems wrong, such times, i feel i just can't go on anymore, when I remind myself of Him, He who can take away my cares, Jesus thanks for the faith I now have in you, Lord..." Our first reaction of the smelly toufu, kekeke and the delicous cuttlefish. And the funniest thing. The many, many times when we laughed out loud when yongjie thought his angel is you and louis thought his angel is me, the times of looking at the ladybird together, taking photo at the dangerous place which louis is so anxious of when you sat there. Our fav quiet place, bamboo shoot but later it was too cold we changed it to the milk tea shop. The times when we dance Never Give Up at the flagpole cos there was no one there. The times when we were washing clothes and praying together. Rap-walking with you, seeing the frog and laughing, feeling the wind thru our faces. Reminding each other to bring key and hp. HAHA. Experiencing the "unique" toilet. Buddy, I really missed you.
Women are like Macs and men are like PCs. I feel that's a generalisation. Somtimes, i felt like a PC, just can't multi-task well. Keke. It's a random thought when I thought of opening to many windows- blog, email, msn, i accidentally closed a few and gonna re sign in again.
ok highlight, highlights-
NYP crusade chalet! Keke.
FUN! tiring. enlightening... let me tell you why.
Played "sardines". It felt like a hide and seek though.
ok, the real *highlight* is...
i'm bitten by an BIG, HUMONGOUS ANT! I freaked out.
I felt that the pain was worse then blood taking.
There it stinged. There I screamed.
I didnt even dare to take the insect out of my flesh cos I'm afaid that it will sting my hand too. The insect was unflickable (there's no such word, i think but it's used to describe sth that's stuck on you despite furiously trying to shake it off).
Just screamed. and shake. I didn't realise how unglam it was at that moment! (I've learnt to laugh when I'm embarrased.) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Anw, ivin just removed it. Like it's nothing.
I've realised I've just believed in a lie. How could it sting your hand when you are grabbing the body? It's just an ant, smaller than my pinkie's nail, how could it be so big and humongous? I realised that my fears are irrational, my fears paralyzes me and my fears allow it to continue stinging me. Truth is so important at that moment. Knowing the truth can indeed set me free. The truth is, that I have all power and authority to take that ant off me. The truth is, the ant is so small, compared to me. I could pray all day long just to remove that ant but God has already given me all I need to remove it. I need to realise TRUTH.
I would strongly recommend bondage breaker to everybody. It really exposes many lies and reveals many truth. At first, I thought I wouldnt need it cos I feel my life is not in some kind of bondage (my impression of bondage is like drug addiction or sexual addiction, etc) but after reading the book (my church decided to use this book as a material, because of that, i started to read) I realise I am. I'm subtly believing in lies and in bondage of things seemingly innocent which causes me not to experience real victory and freedom that we should have in Christ. Like, for example when phyiscal rest becomes laziness. Yes. I confessed. Laziness. I always thought I shouldn't do it but before I do it, somehow, there's this voice saying, its ok to sleep more, you need it, you will be more energised when the truth is i only need 8 hours of sleep! And then when I wake up, i know I shouldn't. So I confess. And the same thing happpned again and i go into my sin-confess-sin-confess cycle. That's bondage. I need to reject the lie and use the truth. The greater truth is my identity in Christ. I am no longer slaves of sin because Christ has redeemed me from sin. And the same goes for every beloved child of God. There is victory, there is hope for us who are struggling in bondage. We don't have to anymore. We just need to realise about the truth of who we are. Just like how I have the power and authority to take that ant off me, we have the power and authority in Christ Jesus to renounce the lies that satan put in us. Two men betrayed Jesus but one end up hanging himself cos of the lies that he believed in, the other came back to God because of the truth he believed in. Satan (father of lies) sole purpose is only to steal, kill and destroy. His decietfulness is clearly shown when he tempted Eve, when he tempted, accused and condemned Judah, and today, he is still as decietful as ever, taking away our freedom and victory which rightfully belongs to us, as a child of God.
ok highlight, highlights-
NYP crusade chalet! Keke.
FUN! tiring. enlightening... let me tell you why.
Played "sardines". It felt like a hide and seek though.
ok, the real *highlight* is...
i'm bitten by an BIG, HUMONGOUS ANT! I freaked out.
I felt that the pain was worse then blood taking.
There it stinged. There I screamed.
I didnt even dare to take the insect out of my flesh cos I'm afaid that it will sting my hand too. The insect was unflickable (there's no such word, i think but it's used to describe sth that's stuck on you despite furiously trying to shake it off).
Just screamed. and shake. I didn't realise how unglam it was at that moment! (I've learnt to laugh when I'm embarrased.) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Anw, ivin just removed it. Like it's nothing.
I've realised I've just believed in a lie. How could it sting your hand when you are grabbing the body? It's just an ant, smaller than my pinkie's nail, how could it be so big and humongous? I realised that my fears are irrational, my fears paralyzes me and my fears allow it to continue stinging me. Truth is so important at that moment. Knowing the truth can indeed set me free. The truth is, that I have all power and authority to take that ant off me. The truth is, the ant is so small, compared to me. I could pray all day long just to remove that ant but God has already given me all I need to remove it. I need to realise TRUTH.
I would strongly recommend bondage breaker to everybody. It really exposes many lies and reveals many truth. At first, I thought I wouldnt need it cos I feel my life is not in some kind of bondage (my impression of bondage is like drug addiction or sexual addiction, etc) but after reading the book (my church decided to use this book as a material, because of that, i started to read) I realise I am. I'm subtly believing in lies and in bondage of things seemingly innocent which causes me not to experience real victory and freedom that we should have in Christ. Like, for example when phyiscal rest becomes laziness. Yes. I confessed. Laziness. I always thought I shouldn't do it but before I do it, somehow, there's this voice saying, its ok to sleep more, you need it, you will be more energised when the truth is i only need 8 hours of sleep! And then when I wake up, i know I shouldn't. So I confess. And the same thing happpned again and i go into my sin-confess-sin-confess cycle. That's bondage. I need to reject the lie and use the truth. The greater truth is my identity in Christ. I am no longer slaves of sin because Christ has redeemed me from sin. And the same goes for every beloved child of God. There is victory, there is hope for us who are struggling in bondage. We don't have to anymore. We just need to realise about the truth of who we are. Just like how I have the power and authority to take that ant off me, we have the power and authority in Christ Jesus to renounce the lies that satan put in us. Two men betrayed Jesus but one end up hanging himself cos of the lies that he believed in, the other came back to God because of the truth he believed in. Satan (father of lies) sole purpose is only to steal, kill and destroy. His decietfulness is clearly shown when he tempted Eve, when he tempted, accused and condemned Judah, and today, he is still as decietful as ever, taking away our freedom and victory which rightfully belongs to us, as a child of God.
Monday, April 07, 2008
replies to tags:
Davin: Praise God! Haha. great to see you at cell! Thanks for being such a great bro to many of us. :)
jp: hey dear sis, you are so very welcome. love you lots :)
sars: it's so great to hear from you again!
jincheng: Yes, yes. It is an exciting journey and I know even when I'm back, it can be still as exciting too! :)
odie: Hee. Thanks!
Today I went for team meeting. I'm so encouraged to be part of the team, to be encouraged and cared for, to hear from the different ones. The last day will always be a great thanksgiving when I remember how God brought us together again. It was just so beautiful to depend on Him to love each other like how Christ would.
I'm sleeping early and want to wake up early too, in prep for work.
Btw, friends, please call my hm no. if you wanna contact me, 67598287. Thanks.
God bless! :)
Davin: Praise God! Haha. great to see you at cell! Thanks for being such a great bro to many of us. :)
jp: hey dear sis, you are so very welcome. love you lots :)
sars: it's so great to hear from you again!
jincheng: Yes, yes. It is an exciting journey and I know even when I'm back, it can be still as exciting too! :)
odie: Hee. Thanks!
Today I went for team meeting. I'm so encouraged to be part of the team, to be encouraged and cared for, to hear from the different ones. The last day will always be a great thanksgiving when I remember how God brought us together again. It was just so beautiful to depend on Him to love each other like how Christ would.
I'm sleeping early and want to wake up early too, in prep for work.
Btw, friends, please call my hm no. if you wanna contact me, 67598287. Thanks.
God bless! :)
Friday, April 04, 2008
Just now I was talking to someone on MSN and he commented that I am a super christian. I would beg to differ and clarify. I am a sinner saved by grace, bought with a price. I am not righteous because I obeyed the law. I am justified by faith. If I am able to be saved by my own works, then it would nullify the power of the cross. The fact is I am not able. It is only because I choose to accept the wonderful gift of salvation to which God had revealed to me. I am accepted, secured, made worthy and righteous by the power of God that I have allowed to work in and through me.
Galatians 5:16-26 (New International Version)
Life by the Spirit
16So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. 17For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want. 18But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law.
19The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.
22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. 24Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. 25Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. 26Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.
Galatians 5:16-26 (New International Version)
Life by the Spirit
16So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. 17For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want. 18But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law.
19The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.
22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. 24Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. 25Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. 26Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.
Thursday, April 03, 2008
Today I went to P. Ubin with Fiona and both of us thought that it would be an awesome place to have a walk with God. The only 2 discomforts was the hot weather and the mosquitoes! Well, I wouldn't mind the resort though. Air-con... yes. :)
While we were heading back, feeling so hot and hungry... all of a sudden i missed strawberry "bing tang hu lu" and the cold weather in china.
But it was a good time getting in touch with God's beautiful creations.
I saw a pic of a chicken in the brochure and thought abt a silly joke back in china.
We were eating dinner one fine day.
A: why is the egg so small? (it was actoally a quail egg)
B: cos the chicken's backside is too small
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
the rest burst out laughing!
While we were heading back, feeling so hot and hungry... all of a sudden i missed strawberry "bing tang hu lu" and the cold weather in china.
But it was a good time getting in touch with God's beautiful creations.
I saw a pic of a chicken in the brochure and thought abt a silly joke back in china.
We were eating dinner one fine day.
A: why is the egg so small? (it was actoally a quail egg)
B: cos the chicken's backside is too small
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
the rest burst out laughing!
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
replies to tags:
wanlin: thanks my dearest sis!
miao: i know you may not see this but i'll link you. haha :)
swingg: hi! are you suiying??
odie: heehee! thx for your prayers :) btw, its shu xian is spelt as shu shyan
amanda: glad to hear from you
EILEEN(: I heard abt it and i'm really really proud of you guys!
jo: Yes Jolin... i heard abt it and am glad. BTW, a lil part of me wished i was in p. ubin with you now cos my dinner was cancelled. But another part of me is glad to have time to update my blog. Paradox. keke. nvm.
venod: THANKS! i felt so welcomed!
I see some changes in myself after the trip, in regards to:
speech-
"Keke" (another kind of laughter, it's like haha, heehee)
"Sherr?" (what?)
"Mei sher" (no problem)
"si hong shi" (tomato)
"tu dou" (potato)
eating habits-
using chopsticks to eat rice
loves tomato and egg! LOVES**
loves ma la *salivating*
loves to cook (inspired by lou)
lifestyle-
physical
waking up latest at 9plus AM evey morning
plan and schedule appts, more organised
more aware of time
cooking at home
spending more time at home
be a host and not a guest (taking more initiative)
spiritual
a greater dependance on God
a greater conciosness of God every moment
loves having personal time with God
becoming more aware of my feelings
loves talking to God anytime, anywhere, telling Him deep feelings that I can't even describe or sometimes can't even trace the cause, still, I know God knows what I'm trying to tell Him
loves asking God qns and waiting for His ans
loves reading His word and interceding and seeing Him work, even though somtimes He works in ways I cannot see with my physical eyes but He gave me enough conviction to say that something is happening in the spiritual realm
loves recording whatever happens between me, God and ppl
becoming more focus on things that really matter
able to hear Him clearer
more conscious and aware when i sin or when i'm abt to sin
increase faith in God- childlike faith, asking God anything that I lacked
becoming more real and honest with ppl
becoming more patient, accepting and loving to ppl whom i once find hard to love
desire to walk with God all the rest of my life cos it's just too wonderful
I thank God for His grace that He choose to reveal Himself so, so, so real to me, and the team during the trip. Indeed, His promise is so true, "You will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart" (Jer 29:13)
Thank Him that He choose to use us even though we are so weak and unworthy. "for My power is made perfect in your weaknesses" (can't rem the ref)
Thank God that eveytime we fall in sin, He will, by His grace and love, pick us up and make us worthy by the blood of the Lamb. "Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness, I have drawn you" (Jer 31:3b)
Thank God for He choose to ans our qns and request. "Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is anything too hard for Me?" (Jer 32:37)
Thank God for revealing so much of my sins, dirts, impurities. "No one born of God will continue to in, becuase God seed remain in him; he cannot go on sinning becuase he has been born of God" (1 John 3:9)
Thank God for all the encouragement, assurance, affirmation and REVELATION (really, really learnt alot) "Call to Me, and I will answer you and show you great and mighty things which you do not know" (Jer 33:3)
Thank God for JOY in the team. "In Christ, there is fullness and JOY" (can't rem the ref)
There are more, so much that God has done in these 28 days. ASK ME! i'll flip my journal and tell you, but we'll probably need an hour so :)
wanlin: thanks my dearest sis!
miao: i know you may not see this but i'll link you. haha :)
swingg: hi! are you suiying??
odie: heehee! thx for your prayers :) btw, its shu xian is spelt as shu shyan
amanda: glad to hear from you
EILEEN(: I heard abt it and i'm really really proud of you guys!
jo: Yes Jolin... i heard abt it and am glad. BTW, a lil part of me wished i was in p. ubin with you now cos my dinner was cancelled. But another part of me is glad to have time to update my blog. Paradox. keke. nvm.
venod: THANKS! i felt so welcomed!
I see some changes in myself after the trip, in regards to:
speech-
"Keke" (another kind of laughter, it's like haha, heehee)
"Sherr?" (what?)
"Mei sher" (no problem)
"si hong shi" (tomato)
"tu dou" (potato)
eating habits-
using chopsticks to eat rice
loves tomato and egg! LOVES**
loves ma la *salivating*
loves to cook (inspired by lou)
lifestyle-
physical
waking up latest at 9plus AM evey morning
plan and schedule appts, more organised
more aware of time
cooking at home
spending more time at home
be a host and not a guest (taking more initiative)
spiritual
a greater dependance on God
a greater conciosness of God every moment
loves having personal time with God
becoming more aware of my feelings
loves talking to God anytime, anywhere, telling Him deep feelings that I can't even describe or sometimes can't even trace the cause, still, I know God knows what I'm trying to tell Him
loves asking God qns and waiting for His ans
loves reading His word and interceding and seeing Him work, even though somtimes He works in ways I cannot see with my physical eyes but He gave me enough conviction to say that something is happening in the spiritual realm
loves recording whatever happens between me, God and ppl
becoming more focus on things that really matter
able to hear Him clearer
more conscious and aware when i sin or when i'm abt to sin
increase faith in God- childlike faith, asking God anything that I lacked
becoming more real and honest with ppl
becoming more patient, accepting and loving to ppl whom i once find hard to love
desire to walk with God all the rest of my life cos it's just too wonderful
I thank God for His grace that He choose to reveal Himself so, so, so real to me, and the team during the trip. Indeed, His promise is so true, "You will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart" (Jer 29:13)
Thank Him that He choose to use us even though we are so weak and unworthy. "for My power is made perfect in your weaknesses" (can't rem the ref)
Thank God that eveytime we fall in sin, He will, by His grace and love, pick us up and make us worthy by the blood of the Lamb. "Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness, I have drawn you" (Jer 31:3b)
Thank God for He choose to ans our qns and request. "Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is anything too hard for Me?" (Jer 32:37)
Thank God for revealing so much of my sins, dirts, impurities. "No one born of God will continue to in, becuase God seed remain in him; he cannot go on sinning becuase he has been born of God" (1 John 3:9)
Thank God for all the encouragement, assurance, affirmation and REVELATION (really, really learnt alot) "Call to Me, and I will answer you and show you great and mighty things which you do not know" (Jer 33:3)
Thank God for JOY in the team. "In Christ, there is fullness and JOY" (can't rem the ref)
There are more, so much that God has done in these 28 days. ASK ME! i'll flip my journal and tell you, but we'll probably need an hour so :)
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Hi! I'm at changi airport now! Haha. At first I thought I didn't have time but thank God, I have this priviledge of telling you that we've raised our FULL support alr!!! 100%. $17500!!! It's amazing! Just 23rd we only had 57%, then 25th 87%, today 100% and more. Haha. It's a good start to trust God :) Will update again. Be back on 26th Mar 2125 :) Good night! Thanks for praying everbody! :)
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
As I was thinking abt my team's support raising, I thought of George Muller, known to be a man of prayer who obeyed God and having great faith, trusted God for everything. He took God promises for real! One example my staff shared that I remembered vividly was when the orphanage didn't have enough money to buy bread. George Muller prayed and trusted. Sure enough, the doorbell rang and the bread indeed came. And then, as I was teaching in the kids ministry one day, once again, I heard abt him again. A man who prayed for his five friends salvation for his whole life... trusted God for his whole life. 4 friends came to know Christ and 1 came to Christ at his funeral. Curious abt his life, I searched his name using yahoo.com and I found this http://www.ccel.org/ccel/murray/prayer.XXXII.html It was a long article and I'm only half way thru. I placed this link here so I won't lost it and can continue another time when I'm free. As I was reading, I realised how true God's words are, if you are living it out. God's promise of Joshua 1:8 was depicted clearly in his life. Coming back to my team's support, so far, we have around 53% but we need 80% to take our cash advance by 24th feb, if not, we can't go...27% more, which is abt $5k as a team. $5K. I am incapable but I will trust in a capable God. Please pray with us. Thanks. :)
Friday, February 08, 2008
replies to tag:
crystal: happy CNY! :)
zhi ai: miss you! :)
odie: you've been a great encouragement! my hp is still lying at my bedside table. haha, btw, may i know who are you? :)
xue er: dear sis in Christ, so glad to have you in cell grp, i have much to learn from you too. Love talking to you. May you grow in the knowledge of Christ and experience all He has for your life. God loves you! :)
da wanlin: i'm looking forward to work! haha.:)
yueying: haha. i'm using my dad's old hp now. :)
jinping: i'll link you! Great to noe you! :)
Gtim Palacio: i'm sharon yu, not sharon yu po. :)
zw: zhenwen ah, my bestie! would love to see you again! :)
hweepeng: loving you...
venod: thanks! same to you! someone's birthday is coming soon :)
crystal: happy CNY! :)
zhi ai: miss you! :)
odie: you've been a great encouragement! my hp is still lying at my bedside table. haha, btw, may i know who are you? :)
xue er: dear sis in Christ, so glad to have you in cell grp, i have much to learn from you too. Love talking to you. May you grow in the knowledge of Christ and experience all He has for your life. God loves you! :)
da wanlin: i'm looking forward to work! haha.:)
yueying: haha. i'm using my dad's old hp now. :)
jinping: i'll link you! Great to noe you! :)
Gtim Palacio: i'm sharon yu, not sharon yu po. :)
zw: zhenwen ah, my bestie! would love to see you again! :)
hweepeng: loving you...
venod: thanks! same to you! someone's birthday is coming soon :)
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the
paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the
shadow of death; I will fear no evil: for thou
art with me; thy rod and thy staff they
comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the
presence of mine enemies: thou anointest
my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all
the days of my life; and I will dwell in the
house of the Lord for ever.
psalm 23 - bible - psalm of david
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the
paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the
shadow of death; I will fear no evil: for thou
art with me; thy rod and thy staff they
comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the
presence of mine enemies: thou anointest
my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all
the days of my life; and I will dwell in the
house of the Lord for ever.
psalm 23 - bible - psalm of david
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Dear friends,
My very sincere apologies to those who have called/sms my hp without any successful attempts during the past few days. My hp has been very ill and it's proper functions are deterioting. Connection seems to be the biggest issue here- 24 hours without reception. DIL. It may go anytime. My decision is final- DNR. I'll let it go. Indeed, my hp is a loyal and faithful companion for the past few years, to my elder sis and then to me. I remembered how elated I was when I saw it for the very first time. It's with colour! and what marvelous sound it produces. I chose the best colour, the best sound and the best picture for it. I was proud of it cos it belongs to me. It had such great memory that it can helped me remember all my beloved friends no, some wonderful moments in my life, important dates and even the time to wake me up (Though I always silenced it and never woke up). Days, months and years flew past. Slowly, it was scratched and scarred; Faded and old; Neglected and abondoned at times; Lost, once in a while. I couldn't even count the numerous time it fell down, yet it still kept on going, on and on and on... till these recent days. Through all these, I realised how faithful it was. Of course, I know that there will be a time when it will fail me. One day, not only my hp will be gone. All other temporal, physical things will be gone too. At the end of the day what's left? Spritual world and spiritual beings. The spiritual world that is even more real than the world that you are living in- it was here before the universe was created and will be here forever; the God who made you and loved you and all His wonderful angels; the scheming devil and demons to steal, kill and destroy; heaven and hell and your spirit that God has given every human being so we can communicate with Him. But as for now, anything can happen here in this fallen, physical world but whatever it is I know that I can count on God thru eternity. And now is the time for my hp to go. Still, I'm grateful.
"Did I ever tell you how thankful I was to God when each time you dropped but yet survived, each time you were scratched, scarred, faded, neglected, abondoned and even aged- all these and more are still not enough to deter you from serving your purpose and function as a handphone with pride, even to the last of these days. Proud that you have made it thus far. Now, it's time to go. Thanks for just being what you are made to be even in the harshest conditions all the way till now."
And there goes my hp. My PC too- crashed. So, if you need to contact me, please drop me an email at birddie80@hotmail.com. I can check my mail if my bros is not using their PC/laptop or if I go back to NYP. I'll then contact you shortly with my hm phone. Alternatively call my hm phone if you have and rem to leave your name, contact and msg (if it's convenient to) with my mum or whoever that ans. Thanks so much!
Keep in contact, friends! :)
My very sincere apologies to those who have called/sms my hp without any successful attempts during the past few days. My hp has been very ill and it's proper functions are deterioting. Connection seems to be the biggest issue here- 24 hours without reception. DIL. It may go anytime. My decision is final- DNR. I'll let it go. Indeed, my hp is a loyal and faithful companion for the past few years, to my elder sis and then to me. I remembered how elated I was when I saw it for the very first time. It's with colour! and what marvelous sound it produces. I chose the best colour, the best sound and the best picture for it. I was proud of it cos it belongs to me. It had such great memory that it can helped me remember all my beloved friends no, some wonderful moments in my life, important dates and even the time to wake me up (Though I always silenced it and never woke up). Days, months and years flew past. Slowly, it was scratched and scarred; Faded and old; Neglected and abondoned at times; Lost, once in a while. I couldn't even count the numerous time it fell down, yet it still kept on going, on and on and on... till these recent days. Through all these, I realised how faithful it was. Of course, I know that there will be a time when it will fail me. One day, not only my hp will be gone. All other temporal, physical things will be gone too. At the end of the day what's left? Spritual world and spiritual beings. The spiritual world that is even more real than the world that you are living in- it was here before the universe was created and will be here forever; the God who made you and loved you and all His wonderful angels; the scheming devil and demons to steal, kill and destroy; heaven and hell and your spirit that God has given every human being so we can communicate with Him. But as for now, anything can happen here in this fallen, physical world but whatever it is I know that I can count on God thru eternity. And now is the time for my hp to go. Still, I'm grateful.
"Did I ever tell you how thankful I was to God when each time you dropped but yet survived, each time you were scratched, scarred, faded, neglected, abondoned and even aged- all these and more are still not enough to deter you from serving your purpose and function as a handphone with pride, even to the last of these days. Proud that you have made it thus far. Now, it's time to go. Thanks for just being what you are made to be even in the harshest conditions all the way till now."
And there goes my hp. My PC too- crashed. So, if you need to contact me, please drop me an email at birddie80@hotmail.com. I can check my mail if my bros is not using their PC/laptop or if I go back to NYP. I'll then contact you shortly with my hm phone. Alternatively call my hm phone if you have and rem to leave your name, contact and msg (if it's convenient to) with my mum or whoever that ans. Thanks so much!
Keep in contact, friends! :)
Saturday, January 05, 2008
As I called DWL today and she asked me how was my day... I thought today nothing much had happened until I learnt to give thanks, realising that everything happened was for a purpose.
Thank God for DWL time on the phone. I realised how we need each other. It's linked! You can't get closer to God w/o ppl and you can't get closer to ppl w/o God. I learnt that in a book i'm reading recently. I guess God not only gives theory lessons but also many platforms for practical lessons thru ppl. So next time when I learnt something, I know I will have the opportunity to apply it. Anw, we were not made to be a loner. That's how we are created. God didn't stopped at Adam. He created Eve bcos He said it's not good for man to be alone. :) No wonder Paul urges us not to give up meeting one another as some are in the habit of doing so, but spur one another on as you see the day approaching. and DWL i've linked you. muacks.
Thank God for Fiona, enjoyed her company and really appreciate the love that she'd poured out on me. Haha, though she will never admit that she love me! gnor still orh lei! And the very useful and unique designer's edition planner designed by Fiona Wong! Makes me motivated to plan my day!
Thank God for PKC and SMAD that i hv an opportunity and privilege to serve God. Daddy is great! I know He'll guide me! And pull me out of the water when I sink, though I pray that I wont! Still, all things works for the good of those who loved Him.
Thank God for the planner which Adeline gave me that has verses on it. It reminded me of Jesus- the exact representation of God (as stated in the Bible) and it reminded me to be like Him! "The Son of man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life, a ransom for many." Mark 10:45 "For the Son of man has come to seek and to save the lost" Luke 19:10
Thank God for the time to do RT (Resistance Training) and also Eddison for checking on me to continue to take good care of what God has given me- my body. He's really an expert in Sports and Wellness. YEAH! I don't wanna lose weight anymore, I want a have a healthy lifestyle because I wanna live for God everyday! :)
Looking forward to the coming days ahead with God and ppl- gym with Fazila and Fiona, PD meet, swimming with Su Yi and solitude with Fiona. WOOHOO!
God is real! I have learnt to exclaim this with great faith and conviction as He reveal more of Himself to me day by day. (Ask me 4 years ago, i'd prob not tell you I'm a Christian unless you ask.) Perhaps, somtimes you are like me who rushed thru the day without noticing God. Take time to think. I'm sure there are many instances when you exclaimed thank God but there are also many times you don't realise it's God. Like when you survived thru an accident, someone brought you comfort in your sorrows, when you are hungry, someone fed you or even the simplest of all, the oxygen that He's created for you to survive. :) Nothing happened by chance. He's always drawing ppl to Him. He pursues you with an everlasting love. We are created to know Him, to have a r/s with Him and to be loved by Him. It is irreplacable. No achievement, wealth or even any other human relationship can fill the void because only God's love is complete. So often we find ourselves loving another person because they are nice, pretty, handsome, lovable, funny, humourous, make us smile, pitiful, needy, increases our reputation, or ego, making us like we are kind or good ppl, or mayb to gain salvation which cannot be gained by works or mayb because we need them or can't live without them, etc. This is loving based on conditions. Somtimes we strive so hard to be loved by ppl too. God's love, on the other hand is unconditional. He loves you the way you are! Big or small, tall or short- just the way you are. :)
LOVE is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
God is the complete expression of love. He will never fail you.
He's lovin you! Click and see! (rem to on the speakers! Don't rush thru k, take time to listen- the very words of God) :)
Because His love is so deep, so wide, you cannot contain it. It will overflow into the lives of others. Find out what motivates Mother Teresa to do what she do, the Koreans who choose to risk their lives to provide medical aid, or the Sinagporean ganster turned pastor. It's because they've experienced the complete love that no human can give.
Read more true stories [click here] that are much closer to our hearts becauase they are students! like us! and they struggles with real issues that adults seldom talk to us abt.
Thank God for DWL time on the phone. I realised how we need each other. It's linked! You can't get closer to God w/o ppl and you can't get closer to ppl w/o God. I learnt that in a book i'm reading recently. I guess God not only gives theory lessons but also many platforms for practical lessons thru ppl. So next time when I learnt something, I know I will have the opportunity to apply it. Anw, we were not made to be a loner. That's how we are created. God didn't stopped at Adam. He created Eve bcos He said it's not good for man to be alone. :) No wonder Paul urges us not to give up meeting one another as some are in the habit of doing so, but spur one another on as you see the day approaching. and DWL i've linked you. muacks.
Thank God for Fiona, enjoyed her company and really appreciate the love that she'd poured out on me. Haha, though she will never admit that she love me! gnor still orh lei! And the very useful and unique designer's edition planner designed by Fiona Wong! Makes me motivated to plan my day!
Thank God for PKC and SMAD that i hv an opportunity and privilege to serve God. Daddy is great! I know He'll guide me! And pull me out of the water when I sink, though I pray that I wont! Still, all things works for the good of those who loved Him.
Thank God for the planner which Adeline gave me that has verses on it. It reminded me of Jesus- the exact representation of God (as stated in the Bible) and it reminded me to be like Him! "The Son of man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life, a ransom for many." Mark 10:45 "For the Son of man has come to seek and to save the lost" Luke 19:10
Thank God for the time to do RT (Resistance Training) and also Eddison for checking on me to continue to take good care of what God has given me- my body. He's really an expert in Sports and Wellness. YEAH! I don't wanna lose weight anymore, I want a have a healthy lifestyle because I wanna live for God everyday! :)
Looking forward to the coming days ahead with God and ppl- gym with Fazila and Fiona, PD meet, swimming with Su Yi and solitude with Fiona. WOOHOO!
God is real! I have learnt to exclaim this with great faith and conviction as He reveal more of Himself to me day by day. (Ask me 4 years ago, i'd prob not tell you I'm a Christian unless you ask.) Perhaps, somtimes you are like me who rushed thru the day without noticing God. Take time to think. I'm sure there are many instances when you exclaimed thank God but there are also many times you don't realise it's God. Like when you survived thru an accident, someone brought you comfort in your sorrows, when you are hungry, someone fed you or even the simplest of all, the oxygen that He's created for you to survive. :) Nothing happened by chance. He's always drawing ppl to Him. He pursues you with an everlasting love. We are created to know Him, to have a r/s with Him and to be loved by Him. It is irreplacable. No achievement, wealth or even any other human relationship can fill the void because only God's love is complete. So often we find ourselves loving another person because they are nice, pretty, handsome, lovable, funny, humourous, make us smile, pitiful, needy, increases our reputation, or ego, making us like we are kind or good ppl, or mayb to gain salvation which cannot be gained by works or mayb because we need them or can't live without them, etc. This is loving based on conditions. Somtimes we strive so hard to be loved by ppl too. God's love, on the other hand is unconditional. He loves you the way you are! Big or small, tall or short- just the way you are. :)
LOVE is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
God is the complete expression of love. He will never fail you.
He's lovin you! Click and see! (rem to on the speakers! Don't rush thru k, take time to listen- the very words of God) :)
Because His love is so deep, so wide, you cannot contain it. It will overflow into the lives of others. Find out what motivates Mother Teresa to do what she do, the Koreans who choose to risk their lives to provide medical aid, or the Sinagporean ganster turned pastor. It's because they've experienced the complete love that no human can give.
Read more true stories [click here] that are much closer to our hearts becauase they are students! like us! and they struggles with real issues that adults seldom talk to us abt.
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
CASTING CROWNS- Who am I
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Things to thank God for:
1) Metamorphosis 07. Regrets not inviting ppl like Jane ho, James, Crystal earlier cos its jus too good. I was awaken from the lies and set free in God's truth! I realise my life is changed not bcos I had some emotional experiences, etc but my life is changed the day I accepted Jesus Christ into my life. I became a child of the Most High God, Holy, loved, of value and worth, nothing can change those truth. Holy not bcos I am perfect. Holy bcos God chose to sacrifice His Son once and for all so that I can be made right with God. Loved, of value and worth, not bcos i'm truly worthy, of value and deserved to be loved but bcos of God's grace and mercy. It's like an old ragged doll being loved by a little girl. She can't have it away for a single day. When she realised that she left it at home on the way to the airport, the whole trip would be cancelled bcos the girl just wouldn't go. This old ragged doll isn't of much value and worth by itself but was made worthy, of value and loved bcos of the little girl. But, why was I inferior and condenmed even when I accepted Jesus Christ into my life? It was bcos I didn't realised my worth. I was blinded, perhaps decieved by the guy who have came to steal, kill and destroy- you know who, that mr sa tan and missed out on the One who came to give me an abundant life. I was like a frog who turned into a prince yet at times still forgetting that I'm already a prince and going back to my old ways of squatting in the pond and eating flies.
2) Lost my 3 most impt card and almost late for work. At first, I thought it was a bad day yet it re-affirms my convictions. It was of course painful to lose sth precious but one qns struck me- is my cards more impt than God? I realised that it is better to lose the cards than to lose God. My life is not worse because of bad circumstances. My life is worse without God. I am pressed but not crushed, persecuted but not abondoned, struck down but not destroyed. Circumstances will not changed my life, even when the world says that I'm condenmed or doomed for the rest of my life. Because my identity and life is not in the hands of this world but in the hands of God. My life is changed the day I accepted Christ- the day I know He has plans to prosper and not to harm me, plans to give me a future and hope; all things will work for the good of those who love Him and who are called according to His purpose. Just like Joseph who was sold by his jealous bros to be a slave, in Egypt, wrongly accused, and thrown to jail yet in the end God made him king and saved his family from famine.
3) Able to give and recieve
4) Friends from attachment, christmas party, metamorphosis07, sjab, pd, ytss, nyp. Thank God for the time together.
5) Family. Thank God for the home where I lay my head every night. The food that's so readily available. The little bickerings I had with my younger bro. The co-operation of writing Christmas wishes, the gifts and the love. Even seeing anyone of you at home brings joy.
6) 2008. Felt unprepared. Haven't had the time to reflect and think ahead. Started 08 with catching up with friends, some sleep, then a hilarous and entertaining wedding. Sleep again and finally setting of resolutions. I've decided that this year resolutions- all my decisions, activities and course of actions will revolve around this, no matter what I do:
Aspiration:
To be a Christ-centered, spirit-filled, 100% committed Christ follower, His vessel and laborer that is being immense in God’s love so deeply that His love will overflow out through my life into the lives of others.
Vision:
To see people becoming all that God intended; finding freedom and true identity in Christ.
Mission:
To meet the felt needs of people through Christ love to surface real needs in their lives.
Purpose:
To glorify God and fulfill the Great Commission thru the power of the Holy Spirit
Values:
Based on God’s truth alone
and so I came out with a couple of goals in regards to general, SJ, work, cell, pkc, spiritual and physical.
Also listed a couple of strength, weaknesses, opportunities and threats (SWOT) too.
Strength to develop, weaknesses to work on, opportunities to grab and threats to pray about.
One prominent weakness I see in myself last year was that I lose focus/distracted/give up easily. Do keep me in prayer, encourage me and keep me accountable in this area ok? Thanks all my bro and sis in Christ family. You have truly been a blessing in my life! :)
7) Another sis in Christ i met on the bus from Indoneisa. I see God working in the lives of many others from all over the world. It is exciting.
8) For a little girl that I got to talk to and play games with. I know she's beloved in God's eyes and mine.
9) Sleep and rest. Being refreshed for the new year.
1) Metamorphosis 07. Regrets not inviting ppl like Jane ho, James, Crystal earlier cos its jus too good. I was awaken from the lies and set free in God's truth! I realise my life is changed not bcos I had some emotional experiences, etc but my life is changed the day I accepted Jesus Christ into my life. I became a child of the Most High God, Holy, loved, of value and worth, nothing can change those truth. Holy not bcos I am perfect. Holy bcos God chose to sacrifice His Son once and for all so that I can be made right with God. Loved, of value and worth, not bcos i'm truly worthy, of value and deserved to be loved but bcos of God's grace and mercy. It's like an old ragged doll being loved by a little girl. She can't have it away for a single day. When she realised that she left it at home on the way to the airport, the whole trip would be cancelled bcos the girl just wouldn't go. This old ragged doll isn't of much value and worth by itself but was made worthy, of value and loved bcos of the little girl. But, why was I inferior and condenmed even when I accepted Jesus Christ into my life? It was bcos I didn't realised my worth. I was blinded, perhaps decieved by the guy who have came to steal, kill and destroy- you know who, that mr sa tan and missed out on the One who came to give me an abundant life. I was like a frog who turned into a prince yet at times still forgetting that I'm already a prince and going back to my old ways of squatting in the pond and eating flies.
2) Lost my 3 most impt card and almost late for work. At first, I thought it was a bad day yet it re-affirms my convictions. It was of course painful to lose sth precious but one qns struck me- is my cards more impt than God? I realised that it is better to lose the cards than to lose God. My life is not worse because of bad circumstances. My life is worse without God. I am pressed but not crushed, persecuted but not abondoned, struck down but not destroyed. Circumstances will not changed my life, even when the world says that I'm condenmed or doomed for the rest of my life. Because my identity and life is not in the hands of this world but in the hands of God. My life is changed the day I accepted Christ- the day I know He has plans to prosper and not to harm me, plans to give me a future and hope; all things will work for the good of those who love Him and who are called according to His purpose. Just like Joseph who was sold by his jealous bros to be a slave, in Egypt, wrongly accused, and thrown to jail yet in the end God made him king and saved his family from famine.
3) Able to give and recieve
4) Friends from attachment, christmas party, metamorphosis07, sjab, pd, ytss, nyp. Thank God for the time together.
5) Family. Thank God for the home where I lay my head every night. The food that's so readily available. The little bickerings I had with my younger bro. The co-operation of writing Christmas wishes, the gifts and the love. Even seeing anyone of you at home brings joy.
6) 2008. Felt unprepared. Haven't had the time to reflect and think ahead. Started 08 with catching up with friends, some sleep, then a hilarous and entertaining wedding. Sleep again and finally setting of resolutions. I've decided that this year resolutions- all my decisions, activities and course of actions will revolve around this, no matter what I do:
Aspiration:
To be a Christ-centered, spirit-filled, 100% committed Christ follower, His vessel and laborer that is being immense in God’s love so deeply that His love will overflow out through my life into the lives of others.
Vision:
To see people becoming all that God intended; finding freedom and true identity in Christ.
Mission:
To meet the felt needs of people through Christ love to surface real needs in their lives.
Purpose:
To glorify God and fulfill the Great Commission thru the power of the Holy Spirit
Values:
Based on God’s truth alone
and so I came out with a couple of goals in regards to general, SJ, work, cell, pkc, spiritual and physical.
Also listed a couple of strength, weaknesses, opportunities and threats (SWOT) too.
Strength to develop, weaknesses to work on, opportunities to grab and threats to pray about.
One prominent weakness I see in myself last year was that I lose focus/distracted/give up easily. Do keep me in prayer, encourage me and keep me accountable in this area ok? Thanks all my bro and sis in Christ family. You have truly been a blessing in my life! :)
7) Another sis in Christ i met on the bus from Indoneisa. I see God working in the lives of many others from all over the world. It is exciting.
8) For a little girl that I got to talk to and play games with. I know she's beloved in God's eyes and mine.
9) Sleep and rest. Being refreshed for the new year.
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