thanksgiving!
thank God that He hold me, my foot almost slipped. (i mean not literally.)
thank God for annual leave! i really love this time of the year! been spending time reading for the past 4 days.
Somethings to share here and there. =)
VISION/MISSION IN LIFE
A whole new paradigm shift!
Imagine you've been trying very hard climbing a ladder your whole life. When you reached the top, you celebrate! But as you look around you, you realised that it is not where you wanna be. And then you realised you've been climbing the wrong ladder.
or
You can have the best car pumped with the best petrol running at 140km/hr. You're efficient, fast, cool, a nitch above the rest. But when you arrived at your destination, you realised that this is not to place you wanna be either. You've headed for the wrong direction.
Managers are like ppl who facilitate the cutting of trees, organizing them and encouraging them to make sure they cut as many trees as they can. Leaders stand on a tall hill, saw the whole picture and shouts, "Stop, we're cutting the wrong forest!"
App: To not just manage my life but lead my life. need a personal retreat to establish God-given vision and mission in accordance to where He's leading (circumstance), His Word, passion/interest, Wise counsel, wisdom.
RISKS
Inspiring Poem by Ann Landers'!
To laugh is to risk appearing a fool
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental
To reach out for another is to risk involvement
To place expose feelings is to risk rejection
To place your dreams before the crowd is to risk ridicule
To love is to risk not being loved in return
To go forward in the face of overwhelming odds is to risk failure
A person who risks nothing may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he cannot learn, feel, change, grow, or love.
TEAMWORK(THINK WIN/WIN, INTERDEPENDANCE Vs INDEPENDANT)
Good interactive analogy!
Get 2 ppl up and play arm wrestling. Let them know that they have 60s. Everytime one managed to press the other party down, he'll get a dollar. Rather than both of them struggling and have one winner in 60s, they can both take turns to let each other win within the 60s. In that way, they can achieve much more(dollars), together.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Saturday, April 10, 2010
$$
thanksgiving!
time to read thru ins policies today.
time to talk to dad abt $$ issues
prayers!~
wisdom from God to make wise decision in terms of money, time allocation. that in the process, i wont lose my own soul.
time to read thru ins policies today.
time to talk to dad abt $$ issues
prayers!~
wisdom from God to make wise decision in terms of money, time allocation. that in the process, i wont lose my own soul.
Friday, April 09, 2010
Ask, Seek, Knock!
adding on to the previous post, i just thought of an example re asking, seeking and knocking. its like support raising. we dont jus pray (asking) but also did newsletter to give to our friends by faith (seeking), and invite them to join in the great commision by praying and giving (knocking) =) and we begin to experience God as Jehovah Jireh, our provider be it in prayers and finances.
thanksgiving!
though jb trip was cancelled cos both me and my dad woke up late but its really really nice to stay at home the whole day reading books!
prayers!
Work with enthusiasm, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people in terms of studies. and same... to be in the centre of His will.
thanks =)
thanksgiving!
though jb trip was cancelled cos both me and my dad woke up late but its really really nice to stay at home the whole day reading books!
prayers!
Work with enthusiasm, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people in terms of studies. and same... to be in the centre of His will.
thanks =)
Thursday, April 08, 2010
Ãsk, Seek, Knock!
God revealed sth abt this verse to me today as i was abt to slp. It must have been God bcos I never heard sth like tt before, felt that there's so much truth to it, make sense to me and at the same time timely for someone i talked to just now: ask and it will be given, seek and you shall find, knock and the door will be opened to you. it is a common and widely used verse even for non christians. i jus realised sth. the verse didnt stopped at ask, it continued to seek and even knock. God ans prayers and gives but sometimes, we didnt see it cos we dont seek, and if we sought and found but didnt try knocking, of cos the door wont b open.
ok, tts all. gdnight! =)
ok, tts all. gdnight! =)
Thanksgiving!
hello!
thanksgiving!
for J & A tansport to make uni and sometimes back home fr work, they r really a nice couple.
for cell. was totally blown off by what i hear today abt V's life, abt hw he was involved in black magic, able to see demons, able to ask demons to help him in exams. and then hw his spirit got out of his body, lost consciousness, struggled with demons, then he called on the name of Jesus and came back but even so, he still sometimes lost conscious, turned violent in hospital, not even 4 doses of sedative could control him. then Ps. D prayed for him and cast the demons out of his body. this is very summarised. should hear from V himself man!
for J sharing today, bringing heaven into earth, our assignment and what we are called to do, fulfilling the great commision, its kinda linked to what God has been speaking to me this period of time! amazing! =)
God is really meeting my needs! ytd boss (@tuition centre) called me back to do cleaning cos they service the aircon so the place was quite dirty. so i had extra cash. and, my boss gave me 5 pcs of pies from pie kia cos someone gave them and they cant finish.
prayers!
May His kingdom come, His will be done everywhere i go!
thanksgiving!
for J & A tansport to make uni and sometimes back home fr work, they r really a nice couple.
for cell. was totally blown off by what i hear today abt V's life, abt hw he was involved in black magic, able to see demons, able to ask demons to help him in exams. and then hw his spirit got out of his body, lost consciousness, struggled with demons, then he called on the name of Jesus and came back but even so, he still sometimes lost conscious, turned violent in hospital, not even 4 doses of sedative could control him. then Ps. D prayed for him and cast the demons out of his body. this is very summarised. should hear from V himself man!
for J sharing today, bringing heaven into earth, our assignment and what we are called to do, fulfilling the great commision, its kinda linked to what God has been speaking to me this period of time! amazing! =)
God is really meeting my needs! ytd boss (@tuition centre) called me back to do cleaning cos they service the aircon so the place was quite dirty. so i had extra cash. and, my boss gave me 5 pcs of pies from pie kia cos someone gave them and they cant finish.
prayers!
May His kingdom come, His will be done everywhere i go!
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
Excited!
heyhey!
i didnt update for the past 2 days due to fatigue. but LIFE'S BEEN REALLY EXCITING! God sustained me. Had a nice sleep till 1.30pm today. SHIOK!
Thanksgiving highlights:
Met up with C & S at CWP to share and pray for each other =) God used her sharings and diff situatiions to speak to me re: the exact same need that I have. That as I begin to centre myself in God's will, He will meet my needs. So my focus shouldn't be on my inadequacies but on Him and answering His call, no matter what He called me to do, He will provide all that I need.
I'm really happy!
Prawning w J, A & J! Though I didnt catch any, it is really the ppl that i enjoyed, and God blessed J that she caught many many prawns!
Prayers:
To be in the centre of God's will, and tt when He calls me, I will ans.
Time to read thru ins. policies. Wisdom to choose a gd ins. policy to commit. Guard my heart agaisnt greed, envy, things not of God
That my heart will still place God as No. 1 and please Him, no matter what.
i didnt update for the past 2 days due to fatigue. but LIFE'S BEEN REALLY EXCITING! God sustained me. Had a nice sleep till 1.30pm today. SHIOK!
Thanksgiving highlights:
Met up with C & S at CWP to share and pray for each other =) God used her sharings and diff situatiions to speak to me re: the exact same need that I have. That as I begin to centre myself in God's will, He will meet my needs. So my focus shouldn't be on my inadequacies but on Him and answering His call, no matter what He called me to do, He will provide all that I need.
I'm really happy!
Prawning w J, A & J! Though I didnt catch any, it is really the ppl that i enjoyed, and God blessed J that she caught many many prawns!
Prayers:
To be in the centre of God's will, and tt when He calls me, I will ans.
Time to read thru ins. policies. Wisdom to choose a gd ins. policy to commit. Guard my heart agaisnt greed, envy, things not of God
That my heart will still place God as No. 1 and please Him, no matter what.
Monday, April 05, 2010
Saturday, April 03, 2010
thanksgiving!
for God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whoever believed in Him shall not perish but have eternal life!
had a great time at kids church today! the fun, the joy, the laughter! Its indeed an ans to our pre-service prayer! =)
can slp during bus journey
prayers!
Focus and proirity on God
God will sustain me in His strength, to be careful and not careless, to be excellent in the things that I do.
Able to find surety and submit the necessary doc by deadline, 7 apr for adv dip.
able to go for encounter retreat. hoping J will go too.
for God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whoever believed in Him shall not perish but have eternal life!
had a great time at kids church today! the fun, the joy, the laughter! Its indeed an ans to our pre-service prayer! =)
can slp during bus journey
prayers!
Focus and proirity on God
God will sustain me in His strength, to be careful and not careless, to be excellent in the things that I do.
Able to find surety and submit the necessary doc by deadline, 7 apr for adv dip.
able to go for encounter retreat. hoping J will go too.
heyhey!
thanksgiving:
got into adv dip together jo2 n some others! looking forward to clearing my leave and studying again! looking forward to meeting the ppl at ccc again. i'm kinda elated!
i learnt that as i focus on God, He will meet my needs. today was on the train, kinda tired but decided to spend time with God by reading the Word on the train while standing instead of paying attention to who gets up next so i can get the seats. jus after awhile, a few seats came, and i didnt even had to rush to get them! Indeed, God will meet my needs as i look to Him, my source, my everything.
bro came to fetch me from work at tui centre
prayers:
will be lacking slp for nxt few days cos tmr, sat: am shift, then church. sunday: church then pm shift. mon: am shift aft tt meet up w friends. tue: am shift, mayb gg out. looking forward to off on wed, thu, fri.
that i'll really love n care abt ppl ard me n not jus so obsessed with my life. basically, to be in the centre of His will, not mine.
tt i'll b able to get the documents from my sis and bro as they are my surety but its hard as they are seldom at home. kinda urgent, got to submit it soon for my adv dip.
Heavenly Versus Demonic Wisdom
13 Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show by good conduct that his works are done in the meekness of wisdom. 14 But if you have bitter envy and self-seeking in your hearts, do not boast and lie against the truth. 15 This wisdom does not descend from above, but is earthly, sensual, demonic. 16 For where envy and self-seeking exist, confusion and every evil thing are there. 17 But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality and without hypocrisy. 18 Now the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace.
and to guard me from demonic wisdom... self-seeking? confusion?
thanksgiving:
got into adv dip together jo2 n some others! looking forward to clearing my leave and studying again! looking forward to meeting the ppl at ccc again. i'm kinda elated!
i learnt that as i focus on God, He will meet my needs. today was on the train, kinda tired but decided to spend time with God by reading the Word on the train while standing instead of paying attention to who gets up next so i can get the seats. jus after awhile, a few seats came, and i didnt even had to rush to get them! Indeed, God will meet my needs as i look to Him, my source, my everything.
bro came to fetch me from work at tui centre
prayers:
will be lacking slp for nxt few days cos tmr, sat: am shift, then church. sunday: church then pm shift. mon: am shift aft tt meet up w friends. tue: am shift, mayb gg out. looking forward to off on wed, thu, fri.
that i'll really love n care abt ppl ard me n not jus so obsessed with my life. basically, to be in the centre of His will, not mine.
tt i'll b able to get the documents from my sis and bro as they are my surety but its hard as they are seldom at home. kinda urgent, got to submit it soon for my adv dip.
Heavenly Versus Demonic Wisdom
13 Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show by good conduct that his works are done in the meekness of wisdom. 14 But if you have bitter envy and self-seeking in your hearts, do not boast and lie against the truth. 15 This wisdom does not descend from above, but is earthly, sensual, demonic. 16 For where envy and self-seeking exist, confusion and every evil thing are there. 17 But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality and without hypocrisy. 18 Now the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace.
and to guard me from demonic wisdom... self-seeking? confusion?
Friday, April 02, 2010
thank God for:
great day, slept till 1pm. it was awesome!
retreat with God, great time releasing all thats within me, my worries, my burden to the Lord, to pray and once again commit my plans to Him, affirming my trust and faith in Him, worshipping Him and listening to His promises and assurance!
KAT- Kids Action Team. It's a monthly children minstry workers meet on the thu of every 1st wk. It always encourages me to read God's Word. I had fun with taboo and laughing at my own game! LOL! i really love this game. And to know that God appreciates me!
supper which is $12, cos i only had $13 in my wallet.
dont have to go for the cleaning job.
safe journey
for this book tt i'm gg start - keys to financial excellence by phil pringle fr NLB. Gd r/v fr Joyce Meyer, John Bevere & John C. Maxwell. think i really nd knowledge or assurance in regards to managing $$ according to how it may please God rather than what ppl say (everyone's advice varies anw).
and everything cos all things work for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. =)
SLEEP!
gdnights!
great day, slept till 1pm. it was awesome!
retreat with God, great time releasing all thats within me, my worries, my burden to the Lord, to pray and once again commit my plans to Him, affirming my trust and faith in Him, worshipping Him and listening to His promises and assurance!
KAT- Kids Action Team. It's a monthly children minstry workers meet on the thu of every 1st wk. It always encourages me to read God's Word. I had fun with taboo and laughing at my own game! LOL! i really love this game. And to know that God appreciates me!
supper which is $12, cos i only had $13 in my wallet.
dont have to go for the cleaning job.
safe journey
for this book tt i'm gg start - keys to financial excellence by phil pringle fr NLB. Gd r/v fr Joyce Meyer, John Bevere & John C. Maxwell. think i really nd knowledge or assurance in regards to managing $$ according to how it may please God rather than what ppl say (everyone's advice varies anw).
and everything cos all things work for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. =)
SLEEP!
gdnights!
Thursday, April 01, 2010
hi, i'm actually very tired today due to lack of slp but still managed with God's strength. on am shift, then met 2 ins agent, then dinner and cell, then work.
thanksgiving-
for cell, we opened up alot to each other. today heard hw each of them came to the Lord. it was amazing!
i was posted to a rm tt apparantly lacked staff due to mc however, workload was very light, finished everything by 12pm!
joy, faith and trust in God!
an ans prayer
ytd when i went to work at the tuition centre, the toilet bowl was spoilt, it looks stuck and the water were overflowing, i kinda prayed for it and try to meddle with it... i mean sticking the end of the stick and digging out whatever i can. the water subsided. i dunno if it worked cos they off the water supply, i jus leave all to God and the nxt day i asked abt it again and they said they didnt call the plumber, the toilet bowl worked aft in subsided.
still confused over what ins to buy but i shouldnt let this issue distract me fr my priorities- loving God and ppl.
gd nights!
thanksgiving-
for cell, we opened up alot to each other. today heard hw each of them came to the Lord. it was amazing!
i was posted to a rm tt apparantly lacked staff due to mc however, workload was very light, finished everything by 12pm!
joy, faith and trust in God!
an ans prayer
ytd when i went to work at the tuition centre, the toilet bowl was spoilt, it looks stuck and the water were overflowing, i kinda prayed for it and try to meddle with it... i mean sticking the end of the stick and digging out whatever i can. the water subsided. i dunno if it worked cos they off the water supply, i jus leave all to God and the nxt day i asked abt it again and they said they didnt call the plumber, the toilet bowl worked aft in subsided.
still confused over what ins to buy but i shouldnt let this issue distract me fr my priorities- loving God and ppl.
gd nights!
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
here's my thanksgiving for today, lets see...
today i woke up at 6.20am. thank God still can make it in time for work.
thk God for a lil sense of humour tt my collague has.
ME: why is dr. ____ face so black today? (i mean he's not as smiley as he usually is)
G: cos he's suntanned.
ME: huh????? *bursts in laughter
met up with manulife ins agent, thank God, find that the ins agent pretty gd, taught me hw to save money and not over commit. Only God knows what will happen in the future and i dont wish to spend the bulk of my $ on ins in which i may/may not use it. so i jus want a basic life protection plan and mayb one that pays for my hosp bills due to the rising med cost.
talking to tt ins agent also reminded me to thk God for really bad situations last yr tt taught me hw to save. thr's this period of time when one of my family member was hospitalised, all the tests and scans were so expensive! and thr's this time when my parents went overseas and i'm all on my own, leaving me with the home, the bills, my bro pocket $, groceries, etc. this gave me a mini experience of the coming stage in life that i might be in- having a hm, a family. Thank God too, for I know that He truly meet my needs, even when i dont see it then and felt so depressed abt everything and pitied myself. He was there and He brought me thru so I can learn and grow, look back and give thanks.
thk God for jojo, she sent me this email, helping me to rise early. I find it quite useful. It says we should decide what time we wake up the night before and not leave the most impt decision when we wake up as we will not be in the alert state of mind to decide whats best. what a paradigm shift! it motivates me to make impt decision and pack impt stuff in my bag the night before instead of leaving it till tmr morning!
thk God i can nap 4hrs
for time to pray during travel
for time to think of ice breaker/prepare lesson during travel
for time to wash car
tt my eyes is on Him
for food
for parents, for strawberries and mango, for house
basically everything! =)
Pray for me, find myself in time and money constraint sometimes, need wisdom to manage time and money. nonetheless, i know God will meet my needs for He said He is my Provider. He said He will give wisdom to those who ask. And has always proven so. Holding on to Him, His promises and His truth, trusting and being satisfied in Him alone even in times of difficulty! I'm happy and blessed!
today i woke up at 6.20am. thank God still can make it in time for work.
thk God for a lil sense of humour tt my collague has.
ME: why is dr. ____ face so black today? (i mean he's not as smiley as he usually is)
G: cos he's suntanned.
ME: huh????? *bursts in laughter
met up with manulife ins agent, thank God, find that the ins agent pretty gd, taught me hw to save money and not over commit. Only God knows what will happen in the future and i dont wish to spend the bulk of my $ on ins in which i may/may not use it. so i jus want a basic life protection plan and mayb one that pays for my hosp bills due to the rising med cost.
talking to tt ins agent also reminded me to thk God for really bad situations last yr tt taught me hw to save. thr's this period of time when one of my family member was hospitalised, all the tests and scans were so expensive! and thr's this time when my parents went overseas and i'm all on my own, leaving me with the home, the bills, my bro pocket $, groceries, etc. this gave me a mini experience of the coming stage in life that i might be in- having a hm, a family. Thank God too, for I know that He truly meet my needs, even when i dont see it then and felt so depressed abt everything and pitied myself. He was there and He brought me thru so I can learn and grow, look back and give thanks.
thk God for jojo, she sent me this email, helping me to rise early. I find it quite useful. It says we should decide what time we wake up the night before and not leave the most impt decision when we wake up as we will not be in the alert state of mind to decide whats best. what a paradigm shift! it motivates me to make impt decision and pack impt stuff in my bag the night before instead of leaving it till tmr morning!
thk God i can nap 4hrs
for time to pray during travel
for time to think of ice breaker/prepare lesson during travel
for time to wash car
tt my eyes is on Him
for food
for parents, for strawberries and mango, for house
basically everything! =)
Pray for me, find myself in time and money constraint sometimes, need wisdom to manage time and money. nonetheless, i know God will meet my needs for He said He is my Provider. He said He will give wisdom to those who ask. And has always proven so. Holding on to Him, His promises and His truth, trusting and being satisfied in Him alone even in times of difficulty! I'm happy and blessed!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
hello everybody again!
decided to pen down my thanksgiving everyday, to intentionally sit down and blog abt what God is doing in my life!
okay, so here you go for today,
thank God i can borrow touchpoint from NLB, the verses really speaks to me in my life- not doing the things that you felt should do is also sinning. God speaks through consience too. Someone in my cell always says, "i'd rather hear God wrongly and make mistakes than to not do it and disobey God." Of course everything we do should be validated by the absolute Word.
there are things i should do, like f/u w fw n sis, being accountable to new cell, ex cell, tim, praying, and being responsible as a cso in sjab but not doing.
Am also reminded of being Christlike- for the Son of man come to serve and not to be served.
thank God for cell grp & church, spoke to my heart (yea, lately have been thinking alot abt $$, thinking abt hw little i earned and hw it surely wouldnt be enuff for petrol, car, studies, house, marriage, family if i have and retirement even with consistent 30% savings. what's more? i hope to do missions and that needs cost too. No matter how i calculate, it is never enough and i get so tired thinking abt hw to earn more $$).
Then on wed, one of my cell mate shared abt her family holding on to a story of how this grp of missionaries gave rice to the poor, there are so many ppl it seems like the rice is never enuff but they still keep giving by faith and the rice doesnt seem to finish. So even when her dad loses his job, they looked to God. if they were to calculate, its never enuff, yet they still survived all these years!
Also, that I should put on the armour of God everyday! yea, its been a long time since i'm reminded of it... shield of faith, breastplate of righteousness, belt of truth, gospel of peeace, helmet of salvation... praying always... for our struggle is not against flesh and bld but against ... spriritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms...
and also to obey God.
and on sunday, i'm once again reminded that i shouldnt limit God, that i must know who that is in me, that i need to surrender the culture and traditions (to be rich/millionaire) cos they are like cracks in a bowl that is preventing me from being filled, and assured me that He will repair what is broken (my faith) and release me into my destiny.
it was then i realise money has taken a hold on me. i could very well psycho myself to think that if i have more money, i can give to others and extend God's kingdom, how noble... but then i am subtly putting money first cos i'm looking to money instead of God to accomplish great things. i almost lost faith in God when i did that.
Yes, the Lord examines my heart and i thank God for His mercy, for bringing me back to His heart. =)
Though right now, I am still working part time (cleaning up a tuition centre, 1h/day, mon-fri @ serangoon north ave 1, earning 12/hr) I work with peace and joy, with faith in God that He is the source of my income, that He will meet my needs and with a clear conscience before God as He continue to examine my heart. =)
thank God also, cos my boss at the tuition centre is really really very nice!
thank God for my bro who sometimes drive me to work
thank God for manageable duties today
thank God for joy and faith in Him again, i felt so released, so free
thank God that most of my request are granted so i can attend church and cell
thank God that i can sleep! haha
GOODNIGHT!
decided to pen down my thanksgiving everyday, to intentionally sit down and blog abt what God is doing in my life!
okay, so here you go for today,
thank God i can borrow touchpoint from NLB, the verses really speaks to me in my life- not doing the things that you felt should do is also sinning. God speaks through consience too. Someone in my cell always says, "i'd rather hear God wrongly and make mistakes than to not do it and disobey God." Of course everything we do should be validated by the absolute Word.
there are things i should do, like f/u w fw n sis, being accountable to new cell, ex cell, tim, praying, and being responsible as a cso in sjab but not doing.
Am also reminded of being Christlike- for the Son of man come to serve and not to be served.
thank God for cell grp & church, spoke to my heart (yea, lately have been thinking alot abt $$, thinking abt hw little i earned and hw it surely wouldnt be enuff for petrol, car, studies, house, marriage, family if i have and retirement even with consistent 30% savings. what's more? i hope to do missions and that needs cost too. No matter how i calculate, it is never enough and i get so tired thinking abt hw to earn more $$).
Then on wed, one of my cell mate shared abt her family holding on to a story of how this grp of missionaries gave rice to the poor, there are so many ppl it seems like the rice is never enuff but they still keep giving by faith and the rice doesnt seem to finish. So even when her dad loses his job, they looked to God. if they were to calculate, its never enuff, yet they still survived all these years!
Also, that I should put on the armour of God everyday! yea, its been a long time since i'm reminded of it... shield of faith, breastplate of righteousness, belt of truth, gospel of peeace, helmet of salvation... praying always... for our struggle is not against flesh and bld but against ... spriritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms...
and also to obey God.
and on sunday, i'm once again reminded that i shouldnt limit God, that i must know who that is in me, that i need to surrender the culture and traditions (to be rich/millionaire) cos they are like cracks in a bowl that is preventing me from being filled, and assured me that He will repair what is broken (my faith) and release me into my destiny.
it was then i realise money has taken a hold on me. i could very well psycho myself to think that if i have more money, i can give to others and extend God's kingdom, how noble... but then i am subtly putting money first cos i'm looking to money instead of God to accomplish great things. i almost lost faith in God when i did that.
Yes, the Lord examines my heart and i thank God for His mercy, for bringing me back to His heart. =)
Though right now, I am still working part time (cleaning up a tuition centre, 1h/day, mon-fri @ serangoon north ave 1, earning 12/hr) I work with peace and joy, with faith in God that He is the source of my income, that He will meet my needs and with a clear conscience before God as He continue to examine my heart. =)
thank God also, cos my boss at the tuition centre is really really very nice!
thank God for my bro who sometimes drive me to work
thank God for manageable duties today
thank God for joy and faith in Him again, i felt so released, so free
thank God that most of my request are granted so i can attend church and cell
thank God that i can sleep! haha
GOODNIGHT!
Thursday, February 25, 2010
grace
hellO everybody! it's been awhile! have been re reading my blog entries and it sort of encouraged me and reminded me about why i have a blog in the first place. And, since I've decided, with a clear purpose, I will keep blogging as much as I can. Sorry ppl for not updating, now here's one, for a 2nd start.
Recently I've discovered something I thought was meaningful. I realised that only when I have experienced, knowledge then becomes alive, and practical to me.
Someone ever told me, if you choose to hold on tightly to unforgiveness and anger, you are like holding on tightly to a blade with your bare hands which the person who hurt you/arouse your anger had thrown. He throws the blade, walks away and life goes on for him while you catch the blade, was hurt and continue hurting if you hold on to it.
Recently, my dad made me really angry by accusing me abt sth I did not do. He mentioned it once, twice and I've already nicely told him that I havent done it. But to keep pushing the blame to me for sth I have not done the third or the fourth time really made me blast at him. It was wrong of him to accuse me but it is also wrong of me to have blasted at him. I guess its true, ppl who are hurt will tend to hurt others. I was hurt, I blasted at my dad, my dad was hurt and he blasted at my mum at the slightest irritation, my mum was hurt, but thank God for her wisdom, she stopped the cycle. I thought of Jesus being so calm and cool before Herod and Pilate with all those accusations. A humble heart and trust in the Father to judge fairly. It's an area where I need His grace as I work on it. The anger was somehow shortlived when my attention was on the tv and after that, work. But the next day, it came back again, everytime when I think of how he accused me. I have so much to say, "How can he say that of me? Can't he find out the truth first? He's so irritating..." and it goes on. It was then I realised I have to let go of the blade in my hand. God always knows whats best for me, that is, to forgive as he commanded.
Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received, freely give. Matthew 10:8
As freely as I've recieved GRACE, let me give too.
Recently I've discovered something I thought was meaningful. I realised that only when I have experienced, knowledge then becomes alive, and practical to me.
Someone ever told me, if you choose to hold on tightly to unforgiveness and anger, you are like holding on tightly to a blade with your bare hands which the person who hurt you/arouse your anger had thrown. He throws the blade, walks away and life goes on for him while you catch the blade, was hurt and continue hurting if you hold on to it.
Recently, my dad made me really angry by accusing me abt sth I did not do. He mentioned it once, twice and I've already nicely told him that I havent done it. But to keep pushing the blame to me for sth I have not done the third or the fourth time really made me blast at him. It was wrong of him to accuse me but it is also wrong of me to have blasted at him. I guess its true, ppl who are hurt will tend to hurt others. I was hurt, I blasted at my dad, my dad was hurt and he blasted at my mum at the slightest irritation, my mum was hurt, but thank God for her wisdom, she stopped the cycle. I thought of Jesus being so calm and cool before Herod and Pilate with all those accusations. A humble heart and trust in the Father to judge fairly. It's an area where I need His grace as I work on it. The anger was somehow shortlived when my attention was on the tv and after that, work. But the next day, it came back again, everytime when I think of how he accused me. I have so much to say, "How can he say that of me? Can't he find out the truth first? He's so irritating..." and it goes on. It was then I realised I have to let go of the blade in my hand. God always knows whats best for me, that is, to forgive as he commanded.
Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received, freely give. Matthew 10:8
As freely as I've recieved GRACE, let me give too.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
"How am I suppose to love ppl who constantly put me down, fake! despises me, dont even care abt me or how i feel, dishonest, rude, so unfair, dont like me, undeserving of my love???
-sharon (this is sth i struggled a lil bit more than usual lately in my workplace)
"But you cannot give to others what you have not received yourself, and so my hope is that, as you learn how much God loves you, you'll also let him heal your heart so that his love can flow freely through you. It's impossible to love others until you really feel loved yourself."
-daily hope with rick warren
"Ï'm reminded that I am too, a recipient of God's great UNCONDITIONAL love and mercy, even when I'm so undeserving."
-sharon
-sharon (this is sth i struggled a lil bit more than usual lately in my workplace)
"But you cannot give to others what you have not received yourself, and so my hope is that, as you learn how much God loves you, you'll also let him heal your heart so that his love can flow freely through you. It's impossible to love others until you really feel loved yourself."
-daily hope with rick warren
"Ï'm reminded that I am too, a recipient of God's great UNCONDITIONAL love and mercy, even when I'm so undeserving."
-sharon
Monday, December 21, 2009
Jus today i was thinking abt money, calculating how long would i nd to save (and scrimp) for a house in sg, say cheapest 200k? it would take 55 yrs, setting aside 300/mth!!! then what if i get married, say another 100k? that would be 25.25 yrs!!! and, then retirement, say i work till 67? and live till 100? another 33 yrs. if i spent 500 a mth, it would be approx 200k!!! that will be another 55 yrs!!! opps i didnt include my cpf. still, i think it would only decrease the years i have to scrimp and save by half which comes up to abt 68 years? Salary overseas seemed much much greener. I really wonder how my dadd feed 6 ppl and still able to buy a house and a car. God's provision really. As a child, I used to think that i'll be rich when i work but well, not anymore bcos now i am more far sighted than before. Its so "FAN4" to think abt such things. Thats why i nd an insurance, i guess all financial consultant will say so. Haha. Guess what? and so happen i'm on psalms 78!
PSALMS 78
11 They forgot what he had done—
the great wonders he had shown them,
12 the miracles he did for their ancestors
on the plain of Zoan in the land of Egypt.
13 For he divided the sea and led them through,
making the water stand up like walls!
14 In the daytime he led them by a cloud,
and all night by a pillar of fire.
15 He split open the rocks in the wilderness
to give them water, as from a gushing spring.
16 He made streams pour from the rock,
making the waters flow down like a river!
17 Yet they kept on sinning against him,
rebelling against the Most High in the desert.
18 They stubbornly tested God in their hearts,
demanding the foods they craved.
19 They even spoke against God himself, saying,
“God can’t give us food in the wilderness.
20 Yes, he can strike a rock so water gushes out,
but he can’t give his people bread and meat.”
21 When the Lord heard them, he was furious.
The fire of his wrath burned against Jacob.
Yes, his anger rose against Israel,
22 for they did not believe God
or trust him to care for them.
Yes, like the Isrealites, sometimes, I forgot I have a rich Daddy God! If money were to consume all my time, energy, mind and soul, if i slogged and save so hard to give myself a decent life here on earth, and at the end of my life, I find myself having nth at all, maybe jus skull and bones, I guess thats sth really sad. Not at all like the abundant life God promises. But as I seek Him and His kingdom first, as I bless others with the little that I have, He gave me so much more, it may not be materially but i'm blessed bcos i know Him more. I felt that is the greatest blessing anyone could have. To have a real relationship with God and to know Him more. To obey Him and to live out His purposes and as I do so, to trust that He will meet my needs, even physcial ones. He provided me with a job, with abundance of food at home! As I remembered how he provided for me during mission trip, as i remembered how i passed each exam when i have lesser time to study in poly than the rest of my friends, as i remembered how he healed me when i was sick, as i remembered how he spoke personally to me, words of love, words of confidence, words of encouragement... how he had been so very near. As He divinely meet me and showed me He is all the Bible says He is, Love, Merciful, Patient, My Provider, My Healer, The Rock, Giver of all good things, how then can I not trust Him to care for me? I think I'd be so foolish to say I cant trust God after all the things He had done in my life and the lives of so many others, in the past and present.
When I left with only skull and bones which I cannot even bring with me,
I have You with me for eternity.
Thats the best thing man!
PSALMS 78
11 They forgot what he had done—
the great wonders he had shown them,
12 the miracles he did for their ancestors
on the plain of Zoan in the land of Egypt.
13 For he divided the sea and led them through,
making the water stand up like walls!
14 In the daytime he led them by a cloud,
and all night by a pillar of fire.
15 He split open the rocks in the wilderness
to give them water, as from a gushing spring.
16 He made streams pour from the rock,
making the waters flow down like a river!
17 Yet they kept on sinning against him,
rebelling against the Most High in the desert.
18 They stubbornly tested God in their hearts,
demanding the foods they craved.
19 They even spoke against God himself, saying,
“God can’t give us food in the wilderness.
20 Yes, he can strike a rock so water gushes out,
but he can’t give his people bread and meat.”
21 When the Lord heard them, he was furious.
The fire of his wrath burned against Jacob.
Yes, his anger rose against Israel,
22 for they did not believe God
or trust him to care for them.
Yes, like the Isrealites, sometimes, I forgot I have a rich Daddy God! If money were to consume all my time, energy, mind and soul, if i slogged and save so hard to give myself a decent life here on earth, and at the end of my life, I find myself having nth at all, maybe jus skull and bones, I guess thats sth really sad. Not at all like the abundant life God promises. But as I seek Him and His kingdom first, as I bless others with the little that I have, He gave me so much more, it may not be materially but i'm blessed bcos i know Him more. I felt that is the greatest blessing anyone could have. To have a real relationship with God and to know Him more. To obey Him and to live out His purposes and as I do so, to trust that He will meet my needs, even physcial ones. He provided me with a job, with abundance of food at home! As I remembered how he provided for me during mission trip, as i remembered how i passed each exam when i have lesser time to study in poly than the rest of my friends, as i remembered how he healed me when i was sick, as i remembered how he spoke personally to me, words of love, words of confidence, words of encouragement... how he had been so very near. As He divinely meet me and showed me He is all the Bible says He is, Love, Merciful, Patient, My Provider, My Healer, The Rock, Giver of all good things, how then can I not trust Him to care for me? I think I'd be so foolish to say I cant trust God after all the things He had done in my life and the lives of so many others, in the past and present.
When I left with only skull and bones which I cannot even bring with me,
I have You with me for eternity.
Thats the best thing man!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
its been a long and tiring day.
talked to God with mixed emotions.
was it bcos of the over commitment of activities?
well, maybe.
is it bcos of post night?
could be too.
its one of the days whr thr's so many why God.
why did i find myself doing so much? loving, praying, hoping, giving... yet i cant even trace a fruit sprouting out of the tree.
everything seemed so futile.
why God am i feeling so dissapionted and frustrated?
i dont want to feel so.
i should trust in You right?
Then I went to run and swam and run. Its the adrenaline rush or rather the release of emotions. From home to pool, 30 laps and back home. On the way home, I had stiches and backache. As I was about to stop, these words came. Keep running, keep loving, keep praying, keep hoping, it's painful, its hard, it can be dissapionting and frustrating but keep on going. Perservere, you will see the finish line. I ran all the way back home.
Lord, will you hold my hand as we run this race together? Cos its hard,
but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength, they will soar on wings like eagle, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint (Isaiah 40:31)
I give thanks bcos You are near. (Psalms 75:1) =)
talked to God with mixed emotions.
was it bcos of the over commitment of activities?
well, maybe.
is it bcos of post night?
could be too.
its one of the days whr thr's so many why God.
why did i find myself doing so much? loving, praying, hoping, giving... yet i cant even trace a fruit sprouting out of the tree.
everything seemed so futile.
why God am i feeling so dissapionted and frustrated?
i dont want to feel so.
i should trust in You right?
Then I went to run and swam and run. Its the adrenaline rush or rather the release of emotions. From home to pool, 30 laps and back home. On the way home, I had stiches and backache. As I was about to stop, these words came. Keep running, keep loving, keep praying, keep hoping, it's painful, its hard, it can be dissapionting and frustrating but keep on going. Perservere, you will see the finish line. I ran all the way back home.
Lord, will you hold my hand as we run this race together? Cos its hard,
but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength, they will soar on wings like eagle, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint (Isaiah 40:31)
I give thanks bcos You are near. (Psalms 75:1) =)
Saturday, December 05, 2009
new template
I like my new template, thank God it isnt very time consuming! =)
Its been a very busy week with farewells, gatherings, kids camp. Its been a mad rush and i felt so tired. Totally neglected my source of strength and help. Yet, God is always good and He is always faithful. When I turn to Him, He is always there =)
In the midst of activities, I found Him again, being so real. Just felt Him drawing me back to His loving arms again, back to the closeness we once shared.
I desire worship, not sacrifice. I desire a relationship with you more than what you can do for me bcos I love you so much. -GOD-
Its been a very busy week with farewells, gatherings, kids camp. Its been a mad rush and i felt so tired. Totally neglected my source of strength and help. Yet, God is always good and He is always faithful. When I turn to Him, He is always there =)
In the midst of activities, I found Him again, being so real. Just felt Him drawing me back to His loving arms again, back to the closeness we once shared.
I desire worship, not sacrifice. I desire a relationship with you more than what you can do for me bcos I love you so much. -GOD-
Sunday, November 22, 2009
happy birthday!
i cant slp cos i slept 3 hrs in the afternoon.
Anw, i still have much to thank God for!
Thank for for transport home sometimes, thank God for friends who cele my bday and all the well wishes, thank God for difficult situations at work that didnt have serious consequences (things could be worse if no one intervene), in fact, those difficult situations have turned into precious lessons. Thank God for bringing me thru kids service week after week, even though i'm not so gd at public speaking/teaching/leading/thinking of games, but i must say it is really GOD. Thank God for christian friends surrounding me, they have been a great form of encouragement, thank God... many a times, i keep praying cos i jus know, i need HIM more and more, cos i really dunno what i will do... jus felt so blur sometimes...
yet i know the bible says if anyone lack wisdom, he should ask, ask and it'll be given... i need memory, i need wisdom, i need to be alert and meticulous... i'm still learning. i need to ask God. There's more still to thank God for, the earth, the air, the life that i have, the pair of hands that i have, the job, the $$$ and... and the internet, oh yes, i almost forgot!! =) and hearing from jx at the nyp sccc alumni gathering has been a great encouragement too... to hearing and seeing how his life transformed from one not so sociable, abit beng boy in yr 1 to now... one that is so encouraging, sharing his life and one that is truly being set free from bitterness! I see him glow now, in God's glory =)
and pray together with me that my sis, tc and myself can find find a suitable cell and church. i know thr's no perfect church/cell, for me, its jus one tt i dont nd to request off on sun and yet able to attend cos i cant request off on weekends and also, a cell that is on weekday... hopefully similar age grp, easier to relate to (thanks eileen for that!), main focus is of cos God and being in the center of His will. cos being a christian is not jus abt me growing alone with God. what yw say is so true. thanks. talking to yw and jl, my collaugue also helped me realised an old lesson. that if we ddint on the engine, the wheel cant be steered. so i have to move first, and not jus pray and pray without moving... as i move, God will steer =)
Anw, i still have much to thank God for!
Thank for for transport home sometimes, thank God for friends who cele my bday and all the well wishes, thank God for difficult situations at work that didnt have serious consequences (things could be worse if no one intervene), in fact, those difficult situations have turned into precious lessons. Thank God for bringing me thru kids service week after week, even though i'm not so gd at public speaking/teaching/leading/thinking of games, but i must say it is really GOD. Thank God for christian friends surrounding me, they have been a great form of encouragement, thank God... many a times, i keep praying cos i jus know, i need HIM more and more, cos i really dunno what i will do... jus felt so blur sometimes...
yet i know the bible says if anyone lack wisdom, he should ask, ask and it'll be given... i need memory, i need wisdom, i need to be alert and meticulous... i'm still learning. i need to ask God. There's more still to thank God for, the earth, the air, the life that i have, the pair of hands that i have, the job, the $$$ and... and the internet, oh yes, i almost forgot!! =) and hearing from jx at the nyp sccc alumni gathering has been a great encouragement too... to hearing and seeing how his life transformed from one not so sociable, abit beng boy in yr 1 to now... one that is so encouraging, sharing his life and one that is truly being set free from bitterness! I see him glow now, in God's glory =)
and pray together with me that my sis, tc and myself can find find a suitable cell and church. i know thr's no perfect church/cell, for me, its jus one tt i dont nd to request off on sun and yet able to attend cos i cant request off on weekends and also, a cell that is on weekday... hopefully similar age grp, easier to relate to (thanks eileen for that!), main focus is of cos God and being in the center of His will. cos being a christian is not jus abt me growing alone with God. what yw say is so true. thanks. talking to yw and jl, my collaugue also helped me realised an old lesson. that if we ddint on the engine, the wheel cant be steered. so i have to move first, and not jus pray and pray without moving... as i move, God will steer =)
Friday, November 13, 2009
hello again!
after mths without technology...
hello again! =)
bought a new PC (shared with my sis)!
yay!
hello again! =)
bought a new PC (shared with my sis)!
yay!
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