hellO everybody! it's been awhile! have been re reading my blog entries and it sort of encouraged me and reminded me about why i have a blog in the first place. And, since I've decided, with a clear purpose, I will keep blogging as much as I can. Sorry ppl for not updating, now here's one, for a 2nd start.
Recently I've discovered something I thought was meaningful. I realised that only when I have experienced, knowledge then becomes alive, and practical to me.
Someone ever told me, if you choose to hold on tightly to unforgiveness and anger, you are like holding on tightly to a blade with your bare hands which the person who hurt you/arouse your anger had thrown. He throws the blade, walks away and life goes on for him while you catch the blade, was hurt and continue hurting if you hold on to it.
Recently, my dad made me really angry by accusing me abt sth I did not do. He mentioned it once, twice and I've already nicely told him that I havent done it. But to keep pushing the blame to me for sth I have not done the third or the fourth time really made me blast at him. It was wrong of him to accuse me but it is also wrong of me to have blasted at him. I guess its true, ppl who are hurt will tend to hurt others. I was hurt, I blasted at my dad, my dad was hurt and he blasted at my mum at the slightest irritation, my mum was hurt, but thank God for her wisdom, she stopped the cycle. I thought of Jesus being so calm and cool before Herod and Pilate with all those accusations. A humble heart and trust in the Father to judge fairly. It's an area where I need His grace as I work on it. The anger was somehow shortlived when my attention was on the tv and after that, work. But the next day, it came back again, everytime when I think of how he accused me. I have so much to say, "How can he say that of me? Can't he find out the truth first? He's so irritating..." and it goes on. It was then I realised I have to let go of the blade in my hand. God always knows whats best for me, that is, to forgive as he commanded.
Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received, freely give. Matthew 10:8
As freely as I've recieved GRACE, let me give too.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Saturday, December 26, 2009
"How am I suppose to love ppl who constantly put me down, fake! despises me, dont even care abt me or how i feel, dishonest, rude, so unfair, dont like me, undeserving of my love???
-sharon (this is sth i struggled a lil bit more than usual lately in my workplace)
"But you cannot give to others what you have not received yourself, and so my hope is that, as you learn how much God loves you, you'll also let him heal your heart so that his love can flow freely through you. It's impossible to love others until you really feel loved yourself."
-daily hope with rick warren
"Ï'm reminded that I am too, a recipient of God's great UNCONDITIONAL love and mercy, even when I'm so undeserving."
-sharon
-sharon (this is sth i struggled a lil bit more than usual lately in my workplace)
"But you cannot give to others what you have not received yourself, and so my hope is that, as you learn how much God loves you, you'll also let him heal your heart so that his love can flow freely through you. It's impossible to love others until you really feel loved yourself."
-daily hope with rick warren
"Ï'm reminded that I am too, a recipient of God's great UNCONDITIONAL love and mercy, even when I'm so undeserving."
-sharon
Monday, December 21, 2009
Jus today i was thinking abt money, calculating how long would i nd to save (and scrimp) for a house in sg, say cheapest 200k? it would take 55 yrs, setting aside 300/mth!!! then what if i get married, say another 100k? that would be 25.25 yrs!!! and, then retirement, say i work till 67? and live till 100? another 33 yrs. if i spent 500 a mth, it would be approx 200k!!! that will be another 55 yrs!!! opps i didnt include my cpf. still, i think it would only decrease the years i have to scrimp and save by half which comes up to abt 68 years? Salary overseas seemed much much greener. I really wonder how my dadd feed 6 ppl and still able to buy a house and a car. God's provision really. As a child, I used to think that i'll be rich when i work but well, not anymore bcos now i am more far sighted than before. Its so "FAN4" to think abt such things. Thats why i nd an insurance, i guess all financial consultant will say so. Haha. Guess what? and so happen i'm on psalms 78!
PSALMS 78
11 They forgot what he had done—
the great wonders he had shown them,
12 the miracles he did for their ancestors
on the plain of Zoan in the land of Egypt.
13 For he divided the sea and led them through,
making the water stand up like walls!
14 In the daytime he led them by a cloud,
and all night by a pillar of fire.
15 He split open the rocks in the wilderness
to give them water, as from a gushing spring.
16 He made streams pour from the rock,
making the waters flow down like a river!
17 Yet they kept on sinning against him,
rebelling against the Most High in the desert.
18 They stubbornly tested God in their hearts,
demanding the foods they craved.
19 They even spoke against God himself, saying,
“God can’t give us food in the wilderness.
20 Yes, he can strike a rock so water gushes out,
but he can’t give his people bread and meat.”
21 When the Lord heard them, he was furious.
The fire of his wrath burned against Jacob.
Yes, his anger rose against Israel,
22 for they did not believe God
or trust him to care for them.
Yes, like the Isrealites, sometimes, I forgot I have a rich Daddy God! If money were to consume all my time, energy, mind and soul, if i slogged and save so hard to give myself a decent life here on earth, and at the end of my life, I find myself having nth at all, maybe jus skull and bones, I guess thats sth really sad. Not at all like the abundant life God promises. But as I seek Him and His kingdom first, as I bless others with the little that I have, He gave me so much more, it may not be materially but i'm blessed bcos i know Him more. I felt that is the greatest blessing anyone could have. To have a real relationship with God and to know Him more. To obey Him and to live out His purposes and as I do so, to trust that He will meet my needs, even physcial ones. He provided me with a job, with abundance of food at home! As I remembered how he provided for me during mission trip, as i remembered how i passed each exam when i have lesser time to study in poly than the rest of my friends, as i remembered how he healed me when i was sick, as i remembered how he spoke personally to me, words of love, words of confidence, words of encouragement... how he had been so very near. As He divinely meet me and showed me He is all the Bible says He is, Love, Merciful, Patient, My Provider, My Healer, The Rock, Giver of all good things, how then can I not trust Him to care for me? I think I'd be so foolish to say I cant trust God after all the things He had done in my life and the lives of so many others, in the past and present.
When I left with only skull and bones which I cannot even bring with me,
I have You with me for eternity.
Thats the best thing man!
PSALMS 78
11 They forgot what he had done—
the great wonders he had shown them,
12 the miracles he did for their ancestors
on the plain of Zoan in the land of Egypt.
13 For he divided the sea and led them through,
making the water stand up like walls!
14 In the daytime he led them by a cloud,
and all night by a pillar of fire.
15 He split open the rocks in the wilderness
to give them water, as from a gushing spring.
16 He made streams pour from the rock,
making the waters flow down like a river!
17 Yet they kept on sinning against him,
rebelling against the Most High in the desert.
18 They stubbornly tested God in their hearts,
demanding the foods they craved.
19 They even spoke against God himself, saying,
“God can’t give us food in the wilderness.
20 Yes, he can strike a rock so water gushes out,
but he can’t give his people bread and meat.”
21 When the Lord heard them, he was furious.
The fire of his wrath burned against Jacob.
Yes, his anger rose against Israel,
22 for they did not believe God
or trust him to care for them.
Yes, like the Isrealites, sometimes, I forgot I have a rich Daddy God! If money were to consume all my time, energy, mind and soul, if i slogged and save so hard to give myself a decent life here on earth, and at the end of my life, I find myself having nth at all, maybe jus skull and bones, I guess thats sth really sad. Not at all like the abundant life God promises. But as I seek Him and His kingdom first, as I bless others with the little that I have, He gave me so much more, it may not be materially but i'm blessed bcos i know Him more. I felt that is the greatest blessing anyone could have. To have a real relationship with God and to know Him more. To obey Him and to live out His purposes and as I do so, to trust that He will meet my needs, even physcial ones. He provided me with a job, with abundance of food at home! As I remembered how he provided for me during mission trip, as i remembered how i passed each exam when i have lesser time to study in poly than the rest of my friends, as i remembered how he healed me when i was sick, as i remembered how he spoke personally to me, words of love, words of confidence, words of encouragement... how he had been so very near. As He divinely meet me and showed me He is all the Bible says He is, Love, Merciful, Patient, My Provider, My Healer, The Rock, Giver of all good things, how then can I not trust Him to care for me? I think I'd be so foolish to say I cant trust God after all the things He had done in my life and the lives of so many others, in the past and present.
When I left with only skull and bones which I cannot even bring with me,
I have You with me for eternity.
Thats the best thing man!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
its been a long and tiring day.
talked to God with mixed emotions.
was it bcos of the over commitment of activities?
well, maybe.
is it bcos of post night?
could be too.
its one of the days whr thr's so many why God.
why did i find myself doing so much? loving, praying, hoping, giving... yet i cant even trace a fruit sprouting out of the tree.
everything seemed so futile.
why God am i feeling so dissapionted and frustrated?
i dont want to feel so.
i should trust in You right?
Then I went to run and swam and run. Its the adrenaline rush or rather the release of emotions. From home to pool, 30 laps and back home. On the way home, I had stiches and backache. As I was about to stop, these words came. Keep running, keep loving, keep praying, keep hoping, it's painful, its hard, it can be dissapionting and frustrating but keep on going. Perservere, you will see the finish line. I ran all the way back home.
Lord, will you hold my hand as we run this race together? Cos its hard,
but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength, they will soar on wings like eagle, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint (Isaiah 40:31)
I give thanks bcos You are near. (Psalms 75:1) =)
talked to God with mixed emotions.
was it bcos of the over commitment of activities?
well, maybe.
is it bcos of post night?
could be too.
its one of the days whr thr's so many why God.
why did i find myself doing so much? loving, praying, hoping, giving... yet i cant even trace a fruit sprouting out of the tree.
everything seemed so futile.
why God am i feeling so dissapionted and frustrated?
i dont want to feel so.
i should trust in You right?
Then I went to run and swam and run. Its the adrenaline rush or rather the release of emotions. From home to pool, 30 laps and back home. On the way home, I had stiches and backache. As I was about to stop, these words came. Keep running, keep loving, keep praying, keep hoping, it's painful, its hard, it can be dissapionting and frustrating but keep on going. Perservere, you will see the finish line. I ran all the way back home.
Lord, will you hold my hand as we run this race together? Cos its hard,
but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength, they will soar on wings like eagle, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint (Isaiah 40:31)
I give thanks bcos You are near. (Psalms 75:1) =)
Saturday, December 05, 2009
new template
I like my new template, thank God it isnt very time consuming! =)
Its been a very busy week with farewells, gatherings, kids camp. Its been a mad rush and i felt so tired. Totally neglected my source of strength and help. Yet, God is always good and He is always faithful. When I turn to Him, He is always there =)
In the midst of activities, I found Him again, being so real. Just felt Him drawing me back to His loving arms again, back to the closeness we once shared.
I desire worship, not sacrifice. I desire a relationship with you more than what you can do for me bcos I love you so much. -GOD-
Its been a very busy week with farewells, gatherings, kids camp. Its been a mad rush and i felt so tired. Totally neglected my source of strength and help. Yet, God is always good and He is always faithful. When I turn to Him, He is always there =)
In the midst of activities, I found Him again, being so real. Just felt Him drawing me back to His loving arms again, back to the closeness we once shared.
I desire worship, not sacrifice. I desire a relationship with you more than what you can do for me bcos I love you so much. -GOD-
Sunday, November 22, 2009
happy birthday!
i cant slp cos i slept 3 hrs in the afternoon.
Anw, i still have much to thank God for!
Thank for for transport home sometimes, thank God for friends who cele my bday and all the well wishes, thank God for difficult situations at work that didnt have serious consequences (things could be worse if no one intervene), in fact, those difficult situations have turned into precious lessons. Thank God for bringing me thru kids service week after week, even though i'm not so gd at public speaking/teaching/leading/thinking of games, but i must say it is really GOD. Thank God for christian friends surrounding me, they have been a great form of encouragement, thank God... many a times, i keep praying cos i jus know, i need HIM more and more, cos i really dunno what i will do... jus felt so blur sometimes...
yet i know the bible says if anyone lack wisdom, he should ask, ask and it'll be given... i need memory, i need wisdom, i need to be alert and meticulous... i'm still learning. i need to ask God. There's more still to thank God for, the earth, the air, the life that i have, the pair of hands that i have, the job, the $$$ and... and the internet, oh yes, i almost forgot!! =) and hearing from jx at the nyp sccc alumni gathering has been a great encouragement too... to hearing and seeing how his life transformed from one not so sociable, abit beng boy in yr 1 to now... one that is so encouraging, sharing his life and one that is truly being set free from bitterness! I see him glow now, in God's glory =)
and pray together with me that my sis, tc and myself can find find a suitable cell and church. i know thr's no perfect church/cell, for me, its jus one tt i dont nd to request off on sun and yet able to attend cos i cant request off on weekends and also, a cell that is on weekday... hopefully similar age grp, easier to relate to (thanks eileen for that!), main focus is of cos God and being in the center of His will. cos being a christian is not jus abt me growing alone with God. what yw say is so true. thanks. talking to yw and jl, my collaugue also helped me realised an old lesson. that if we ddint on the engine, the wheel cant be steered. so i have to move first, and not jus pray and pray without moving... as i move, God will steer =)
Anw, i still have much to thank God for!
Thank for for transport home sometimes, thank God for friends who cele my bday and all the well wishes, thank God for difficult situations at work that didnt have serious consequences (things could be worse if no one intervene), in fact, those difficult situations have turned into precious lessons. Thank God for bringing me thru kids service week after week, even though i'm not so gd at public speaking/teaching/leading/thinking of games, but i must say it is really GOD. Thank God for christian friends surrounding me, they have been a great form of encouragement, thank God... many a times, i keep praying cos i jus know, i need HIM more and more, cos i really dunno what i will do... jus felt so blur sometimes...
yet i know the bible says if anyone lack wisdom, he should ask, ask and it'll be given... i need memory, i need wisdom, i need to be alert and meticulous... i'm still learning. i need to ask God. There's more still to thank God for, the earth, the air, the life that i have, the pair of hands that i have, the job, the $$$ and... and the internet, oh yes, i almost forgot!! =) and hearing from jx at the nyp sccc alumni gathering has been a great encouragement too... to hearing and seeing how his life transformed from one not so sociable, abit beng boy in yr 1 to now... one that is so encouraging, sharing his life and one that is truly being set free from bitterness! I see him glow now, in God's glory =)
and pray together with me that my sis, tc and myself can find find a suitable cell and church. i know thr's no perfect church/cell, for me, its jus one tt i dont nd to request off on sun and yet able to attend cos i cant request off on weekends and also, a cell that is on weekday... hopefully similar age grp, easier to relate to (thanks eileen for that!), main focus is of cos God and being in the center of His will. cos being a christian is not jus abt me growing alone with God. what yw say is so true. thanks. talking to yw and jl, my collaugue also helped me realised an old lesson. that if we ddint on the engine, the wheel cant be steered. so i have to move first, and not jus pray and pray without moving... as i move, God will steer =)
Friday, November 13, 2009
hello again!
after mths without technology...
hello again! =)
bought a new PC (shared with my sis)!
yay!
hello again! =)
bought a new PC (shared with my sis)!
yay!
Thursday, September 03, 2009
i met up with tc ytd, and i thought this is interesting =)
he shared this,
sometimes after service/bs/dg you felt that you have just eaten good food. maybe rice with crab, crayfish, fish soup and durains? you felt so satisfied.
in such times, give thanks.
there are also times after service/bs/dg you felt that you have only ate plain porrigde.
in such times, pray. pray for your pastor, ur bsl, your dgl becos they may b gg thru tough times, mayb they may be far from God or have doubts. maybe like job who lost all his sons and daughters? well, we never know, but God knows.
thats what family are for! everyone plays a part! =)
he shared this,
sometimes after service/bs/dg you felt that you have just eaten good food. maybe rice with crab, crayfish, fish soup and durains? you felt so satisfied.
in such times, give thanks.
there are also times after service/bs/dg you felt that you have only ate plain porrigde.
in such times, pray. pray for your pastor, ur bsl, your dgl becos they may b gg thru tough times, mayb they may be far from God or have doubts. maybe like job who lost all his sons and daughters? well, we never know, but God knows.
thats what family are for! everyone plays a part! =)
Saturday, August 01, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
i really wanna drive... but i can only start in sept cos all the aug slots are fully booked =(
i made new specs... but i dont take care of my things well cos i always put my specs on my bed. opps. so i dont wear contacts. when i'm too tired i'll prob slp with it... but i will try to take care of my new specs!
yea, i realised i have been blogging! haha, maybe i cut down alot on meeting with ppl cos of tiredness but i nd an avenue to share my thoughts too yea =) and so here i am!
yea kammy =)
i made new specs... but i dont take care of my things well cos i always put my specs on my bed. opps. so i dont wear contacts. when i'm too tired i'll prob slp with it... but i will try to take care of my new specs!
yea, i realised i have been blogging! haha, maybe i cut down alot on meeting with ppl cos of tiredness but i nd an avenue to share my thoughts too yea =) and so here i am!
yea kammy =)
Sunday, July 26, 2009
I LIKE...
casuarina curry...
nice mutton mutarbak large can share among 3 guys and 5 girls cost only $9!
located at upp thomson i think but i dunno hw to go.
nice place to chill...
tea time party at bukit timah sixth avenue.
we ate and played.
its somewhat like minds cafe.
nice dim sum
wen tou sek at geylang.
this one i also duno hw to go :p
steamboat at bugis
changing appetites at marina sq
hmmmmm what else...
nothing comes to mind.
casuarina curry...
nice mutton mutarbak large can share among 3 guys and 5 girls cost only $9!
located at upp thomson i think but i dunno hw to go.
nice place to chill...
tea time party at bukit timah sixth avenue.
we ate and played.
its somewhat like minds cafe.
nice dim sum
wen tou sek at geylang.
this one i also duno hw to go :p
steamboat at bugis
changing appetites at marina sq
hmmmmm what else...
nothing comes to mind.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
God is good, He is really so good.
I just felt His love overflowing as I worship Him jus now. I read about how Absalom (David's son) was killed in a battle and how when David heard of it, wept and mourned for his son. But the thing is, Absalom actually conspired against David to snatch his throne. Yet, his love for his son was still so unwavering strong. It kinda touched my heart. I think all parents would love their kids no matter how bad they are. And God the father will too, probably much more than what we could ever think of or imagine. To think he actually sent His Son to suffer and die for our sins...
And I wanna tell you abt the time when I wasnt motivated to go to work. Yet, we all have to work. Not only I dreaded work but everything else in life, wash dishes, fold the clothes, empty the bin... i grew indiffernce to the mess in my hse. It's... for no particular reason, nth spectacular happened in my life. I dont even know how to describe the feeling, I dont know hw it came abt...s... everything is so sianzzzz.. etc. Maybe, the thoughts that the world give, I haven't exchanged it for truth that God says. I tried to think of the verses I know. But I still felt... sianzzzzzzz. I know we shouldnt depend on feelings too much yet... somtimes its hard... you know what I mean? I'm like having an internal battle, talking to myself when I felt sooo desperate and said GOD I NEED YOU, I REALLY REALLY DO. He came and took away the -ve feeling. And He made my time with Him exciting again.
I just felt His love overflowing as I worship Him jus now. I read about how Absalom (David's son) was killed in a battle and how when David heard of it, wept and mourned for his son. But the thing is, Absalom actually conspired against David to snatch his throne. Yet, his love for his son was still so unwavering strong. It kinda touched my heart. I think all parents would love their kids no matter how bad they are. And God the father will too, probably much more than what we could ever think of or imagine. To think he actually sent His Son to suffer and die for our sins...
And I wanna tell you abt the time when I wasnt motivated to go to work. Yet, we all have to work. Not only I dreaded work but everything else in life, wash dishes, fold the clothes, empty the bin... i grew indiffernce to the mess in my hse. It's... for no particular reason, nth spectacular happened in my life. I dont even know how to describe the feeling, I dont know hw it came abt...s... everything is so sianzzzz.. etc. Maybe, the thoughts that the world give, I haven't exchanged it for truth that God says. I tried to think of the verses I know. But I still felt... sianzzzzzzz. I know we shouldnt depend on feelings too much yet... somtimes its hard... you know what I mean? I'm like having an internal battle, talking to myself when I felt sooo desperate and said GOD I NEED YOU, I REALLY REALLY DO. He came and took away the -ve feeling. And He made my time with Him exciting again.
Friday, July 24, 2009
i'm off. =)
thank God for the 4 peaceful nights that I had. It's really nice working this round of night compared to those that were so hectic and full of call bells.
i still haven't get my tagboard.
but there's alot of things to thank God for.
esp the many times he answered my prayers.
ytd met up with fw. really glad to have such a personal talk with her. and i enjoyed it lots. God taught me many things as I begin to be involve in her life again. i ventured into the r/s, commited, trusting again and am prepared for risk. i believe thats what my God will do. To love us all the way, even when He know He'll be hurt... thats love. thats loving unconditionally.
i really feel that ppl shouldnt comment or judge others when they dont even know the person well or understand the circumstances tt the person is in.
i'm learning to love ppl, and trying, as how i know my God would.
i need to know the truth and be anchored to truth cos the world is decietful and even my heart can be too.
never give up on ppl as God never gives up on us.
=)
some lighter happenings =)
i'm learning driving and i realised its not easy at all!! its more that jus turning the steering wheels and stepping the accelerator.
but its only the beginning cos i only passed my basic theory trial test.
long way to go...
but i'm God gave me lessons thru this too, even if its jus basic theory trial test.
i walked into the room full of confidence, i can almost memorise the whole green book yet my first attempt. 43/50. FAILED. what?! i walked out feeling like a total failure. everyone said its so easy and i actually failed. Then I remembered God.
God help me to pass, I can't do this on my own. It's too easy to fail and yet I failed. Well, maybe its for my own gd that I failed. I will study harder so I can be a safe driver and drive ppl ard. I WILL STUDY HARDERRR!!!
and i booked my the next slot, sitiing at ssdc studying. this time, i know everything is in God's control not mine. If I pass, I praise God. If I fail, I praise God too for He allows it and its for my own good.
and...
I PASSED!!! 49/50!!!
there's so much diff in the qns. but God gave me the easeir qns for my 2nd attempt. will be taking my BTT this coming mon and so, same prayer =)
*excited*
thank God for the 4 peaceful nights that I had. It's really nice working this round of night compared to those that were so hectic and full of call bells.
i still haven't get my tagboard.
but there's alot of things to thank God for.
esp the many times he answered my prayers.
ytd met up with fw. really glad to have such a personal talk with her. and i enjoyed it lots. God taught me many things as I begin to be involve in her life again. i ventured into the r/s, commited, trusting again and am prepared for risk. i believe thats what my God will do. To love us all the way, even when He know He'll be hurt... thats love. thats loving unconditionally.
i really feel that ppl shouldnt comment or judge others when they dont even know the person well or understand the circumstances tt the person is in.
i'm learning to love ppl, and trying, as how i know my God would.
i need to know the truth and be anchored to truth cos the world is decietful and even my heart can be too.
never give up on ppl as God never gives up on us.
=)
some lighter happenings =)
i'm learning driving and i realised its not easy at all!! its more that jus turning the steering wheels and stepping the accelerator.
but its only the beginning cos i only passed my basic theory trial test.
long way to go...
but i'm God gave me lessons thru this too, even if its jus basic theory trial test.
i walked into the room full of confidence, i can almost memorise the whole green book yet my first attempt. 43/50. FAILED. what?! i walked out feeling like a total failure. everyone said its so easy and i actually failed. Then I remembered God.
God help me to pass, I can't do this on my own. It's too easy to fail and yet I failed. Well, maybe its for my own gd that I failed. I will study harder so I can be a safe driver and drive ppl ard. I WILL STUDY HARDERRR!!!
and i booked my the next slot, sitiing at ssdc studying. this time, i know everything is in God's control not mine. If I pass, I praise God. If I fail, I praise God too for He allows it and its for my own good.
and...
I PASSED!!! 49/50!!!
there's so much diff in the qns. but God gave me the easeir qns for my 2nd attempt. will be taking my BTT this coming mon and so, same prayer =)
*excited*
Thursday, June 11, 2009
amazingly inspiring.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Um9KsrH377A&feature=channel_page
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXut0HxncvY
Put this 2 vid. together. God seemed to be telling me that, "hey sharon, I dont make junks. I made you to shine! I made you good. You dont need to be like other ppl to shine. Now, go and shine!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXut0HxncvY
Put this 2 vid. together. God seemed to be telling me that, "hey sharon, I dont make junks. I made you to shine! I made you good. You dont need to be like other ppl to shine. Now, go and shine!"
Saturday, May 30, 2009
All that I have is Yours
What can we give that You have not given
And what do we have that is not already Yours
All we posees are this life we're living
And that's what we give to Your Lord
Sometimes its easy to forget that:
The 4 prawns that I caught
The praises of beauty, cuteness and being nice
Money
Time
I thought they are mine
But it fact, they are Yours and I'm a steward of them
All glory goes back to God, my creator, the giver of all good things.
I want to be a good steward, to use them wisely, to use them for the more impt things in life.
Seek first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added unto you.
Matthew 6:33
And what do we have that is not already Yours
All we posees are this life we're living
And that's what we give to Your Lord
Sometimes its easy to forget that:
The 4 prawns that I caught
The praises of beauty, cuteness and being nice
Money
Time
I thought they are mine
But it fact, they are Yours and I'm a steward of them
All glory goes back to God, my creator, the giver of all good things.
I want to be a good steward, to use them wisely, to use them for the more impt things in life.
Seek first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added unto you.
Matthew 6:33
Monday, May 25, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
no swine!
Thank God my dad dont have swine.
Haha, I think he got scared by my remarks that he went to have a test.
LOL.
and his bld results were normal.
And yay! my dad came back from canada. =)
Psalms 91:1
Those who dwell in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty
I fear many things. Thrice, this verse comforted me this week. I feel secure in Him.
Haha, I think he got scared by my remarks that he went to have a test.
LOL.
and his bld results were normal.
And yay! my dad came back from canada. =)
Psalms 91:1
Those who dwell in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty
I fear many things. Thrice, this verse comforted me this week. I feel secure in Him.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Laziness
I was dreading to wake up today when I was reminded by a verse I memorised sometime ago and I saw it again in the toilet ytd (sometimes its gd pasting things in front of the toilet bowl)
Ecc 10:18
Because of laziness, a house decays and through idleness of hands, a house leaks.
I jumped out of the sofa and started my day. =) Hahaha.
Ecc 10:18
Because of laziness, a house decays and through idleness of hands, a house leaks.
I jumped out of the sofa and started my day. =) Hahaha.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
i like blogging cos i will re read it but i seldom read my dairies cos of my handwritings and too many of them.
A sudden revelation came as i listened to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4OfhL6dyQpM&feature=PlayList&p=9BCEBEA9EC0E22AF&index=0&playnext=1
I've been running to the things that Person can give and not the Person Himself.
I've been running to healing, but not the Healer.
I've been running to sleep and time for myself (I thought I'm resting), but not the Person who will cause me to rest.
I've been running after owning things, but not my Inheritance.
I've been running after food, water and money but not My Provider
I've been running after love, but not Love
I've been running after grace, but not Grace
I see it now.
=)
That was meant for myself but this entry is meant for my friends:
Can we go kopitiam next time instead of restuarants or cafes?
This doesnt mean I think the meetup is not an important one. The meetup is important but the place is not important, the person that I'm meeting with is. It's your presence that matters not the place.
For one reason or another I've bcome more "aunty" in some sense while learning to live independantly, taking care of the home, the bills, my bro allowance and the groceries. I learn to spend within my means but sometimes bcos of my weakness (like waking up late, I take cab to work). All the more, I need to be thrifty while I work on my weaknesses. I still tend to have the nature of giving but its so much lesser now, within my means. I have to control my expenses now and be disciplined, though I really wanna go nice places with ppl.
And I know my friends are all very kind and have the nature of giving as well. But I just dont like to see ppl giving me things that I feel its not worth the money. Like a cup of coffee for seven dollars? You digest it and it bcomes... Its not the coffee I enjoy, its your presence and you've given that. Youve given something precious, your time and yourself. Thats really enough, for me =)
Hope you understand.
A sudden revelation came as i listened to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4OfhL6dyQpM&feature=PlayList&p=9BCEBEA9EC0E22AF&index=0&playnext=1
I've been running to the things that Person can give and not the Person Himself.
I've been running to healing, but not the Healer.
I've been running to sleep and time for myself (I thought I'm resting), but not the Person who will cause me to rest.
I've been running after owning things, but not my Inheritance.
I've been running after food, water and money but not My Provider
I've been running after love, but not Love
I've been running after grace, but not Grace
I see it now.
=)
That was meant for myself but this entry is meant for my friends:
Can we go kopitiam next time instead of restuarants or cafes?
This doesnt mean I think the meetup is not an important one. The meetup is important but the place is not important, the person that I'm meeting with is. It's your presence that matters not the place.
For one reason or another I've bcome more "aunty" in some sense while learning to live independantly, taking care of the home, the bills, my bro allowance and the groceries. I learn to spend within my means but sometimes bcos of my weakness (like waking up late, I take cab to work). All the more, I need to be thrifty while I work on my weaknesses. I still tend to have the nature of giving but its so much lesser now, within my means. I have to control my expenses now and be disciplined, though I really wanna go nice places with ppl.
And I know my friends are all very kind and have the nature of giving as well. But I just dont like to see ppl giving me things that I feel its not worth the money. Like a cup of coffee for seven dollars? You digest it and it bcomes... Its not the coffee I enjoy, its your presence and you've given that. Youve given something precious, your time and yourself. Thats really enough, for me =)
Hope you understand.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Knowing i'm like a baby is part and parcel of growing up right?
Only can an adult feel like that right?
Can a baby says I'm too baby-ish?
I dont think so.
Prob I'm an adult but act like a baby.
I make expectations in r/s, in ppl or even God, and when they dont happen I get dissapointed.
Isnt that like a baby, always reaching my hands and recieving? And when people dont give you what they want you feel they dont love you?
Even the most sure and steadfast love I can doubt, but You are always patient and merciful to show me You still love me.
God, I think you are very hurt by my attitude sometimes. I seemed to be always asking you for this and that but not making any effort to love you like not taking time to develop that r/s with you. I think I probably irritaed you many times. Like, sinning against you and still have the cheek to ask you for this and that. Knew you are merciful but I took advantage of that. I think I'm not a good person. I dont see any good in me.
Yet, you've always chased after me with unfailing love.
How can that be?
How true this song is...
"Nothing you can do, to make Him love you more
And nothing you have done, could make Him close the door.
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son, everything was done so you would come.
Broken hearts, broken lives, He will take them all..."
Indeed,
Your grace has found me just as I am, empty handed but alive in Your hands...
I want to stop being a baby and always recieve but as much as I recieved Your sure and steadfast love, may I give as well. May I be patient and merciful as You are.
I want to chase after You.
Only can an adult feel like that right?
Can a baby says I'm too baby-ish?
I dont think so.
Prob I'm an adult but act like a baby.
I make expectations in r/s, in ppl or even God, and when they dont happen I get dissapointed.
Isnt that like a baby, always reaching my hands and recieving? And when people dont give you what they want you feel they dont love you?
Even the most sure and steadfast love I can doubt, but You are always patient and merciful to show me You still love me.
God, I think you are very hurt by my attitude sometimes. I seemed to be always asking you for this and that but not making any effort to love you like not taking time to develop that r/s with you. I think I probably irritaed you many times. Like, sinning against you and still have the cheek to ask you for this and that. Knew you are merciful but I took advantage of that. I think I'm not a good person. I dont see any good in me.
Yet, you've always chased after me with unfailing love.
How can that be?
How true this song is...
"Nothing you can do, to make Him love you more
And nothing you have done, could make Him close the door.
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son, everything was done so you would come.
Broken hearts, broken lives, He will take them all..."
Indeed,
Your grace has found me just as I am, empty handed but alive in Your hands...
I want to stop being a baby and always recieve but as much as I recieved Your sure and steadfast love, may I give as well. May I be patient and merciful as You are.
I want to chase after You.
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