I found new strength today! :)

Sometimes I’m tired and weak
I feel like I don’t know what to do
Sometimes I feel like a small boat
Lost in a vast ocean

I’m waiting patiently for Your strength
To be with You forever...

I thank God because He works in ways I never expected. It's true everything happens for a reason. It's true that when there is nothing left but God, that is when you realise that you really need God. Well, several lessons I've learnt this past few weeks. Spiritually, I'm burdened. Physically, I'm tired. It's common to tell yourself, "trust God" and do what you think it's best without being still and listen for directions from Whom you trust. I thought it was easy, I thought I know what's wrong, I thought I could solve it. Hear the "I"s? I know I was self-centered. But when things doesnt go the way I expected, I raised my hands. Helpless, I surrendered. Burdened, I prayed. Though things doesn't change immediately but i'm comforted and am happy when my friend is out of depression. I realised that God works in subtle ways and unless you are spiritually discerned, you'll miss it. Even in my lowest times, sms-es/calls/emails came very timely, even when the other party doesn't know what's happening in my life, they'll call and pray for me. It directs my focus and encourages me. Thanks for your prayers and thanks for allowing God to work thru you. There's so much more to say, as always, but I'm gonna stop here.

Happy Chinese New Year to all! May you enjoy your visitations, and know that it's about genuine LOVE, if not you'll miss out on the greatest thing in life.

Warmest Wishes. :)

procastination?

when procastination gets a hold on me

i thought i could live without God for just a day,
and a day,
and a day,
and 2 weeks passed...

i ignored that still, small voice...

no matter how weak i am, i thought i could get back up again like i always do with God

but this time, i've never let God bring me back
"God wait, i'll talk to u & hear frm u after this show... it's too exciting to miss", then after the show i'll go, "God, wait, i need rest, i'll talk to u & hear frm u tmr k" & it goes on day after day.

i gave myself self-motivation but it was futile.
no matter how i've wasted my time today, i'll always tell myself to spend my time wisely tmr but when tmr comes, i repeat what i did today

i can b happy for awhile but what's deep inside which i nvr want to bother would still take control at times.

the feeling of happiness seems temporal & meaningless, like chasing after the wind.

things that was once dimmed in the light now becomes tempting for thought.
oh, how i missed the times...

a part of me so much wanted to let go and let God but the other part says, it's ok, i can still handle these myself.

but i'm glad all these come to an end. i thank God for stressors so strong that i couldn't take it anymore. it crushed my spirit and breaks me down so i can really come back to God as nothing, realising my fragility, my weaknesses.

how true...

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."

Psalms 34:18

i'm humbled once again. humbled enough to admit that i need God. humbled enough to ask others to pray for me. humbled enough to recieve His grace.

it is in time like this that i find Him so real & true to His promise. He said, "i will never leave you nor forsake you" hebrews 13:5

thanks bro & sis for praying for me. you can't imagine how God have worked thru you!

do cont, to keep me in prayer. pray that God will break my stronghold of procastination. pray that i'll have a diligent spirit. that i'll be patient and hold on to His promise. for faith to allow Him to work thru me. for a humble and pure heart, being righteous and blameless... walking upright in Him, living a life that pleases Him. oh, & a prayer i'd used to always pray... that if i go astray from Him, He will bring me back to Him. i do not want to harden my hearts and forget God like the Isrealites but to always remember His goodness & faithfulness in my life.

Dear Heavenly Father, i thank You for Your promise that if we confess our sins, You are faithful and just to forgive us and cleanse us of all unrighteousness. I thank You that You are not some distant and cold God that gives us rules and regulations to follow but You are a God that wants us to do good yet also understand the fragility and weaknesses of human. Each time we fail, You said, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in your weakness." thank You for Your faithfulness. thank You for comforting me, encouraging me, strengthening me, and moulding me. thank You for using ppl ard me to be a blessing to me. thank You for answering my prayers as well as prayers of my bro & sis. thank You for bringing me back to You... i'm ever so grateful

full of thanks*

i'm just very very thankful for my bio prac. it couldnt be me. i'm not so smart. neither did i studied alot. based on my own efforts i thought i would fail or maybe jus pass. i started studying later than last sem and last sem i got a D. but i believe God is working through me. i simply prayed that my results will glorify God.

initially, i was quite afraid that my results would not be a good testimony to others. i didn't excel academically all these while. i was afraid being an ST would be worse. i was afraid of commiting my time for God's work and purpose in my life would affect my results. so i prayed to God while deciding between being an ST and my studies (cos i noe bad results doesnt glorify God as well).

but one fine day, as i was reading a book, this verse pop out and spoke to my heart.

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

Matt 6:33

immediately, i took that step of faith.

after all these, i realise that it is really not what i can do for God but what God can do through me if i allow Him to.

why did i doubted God in the first place? He's so much greater and bigger than i thought...

i'm touched.

jus wanna thank God for His grace many many times. many times i should have face the consequences but He delivered me out. He is merciful and always faithful.
of all that i can rem these few weeks:

hp (found it 2 days after in my pocket... lol. like jus in front of me but i couldnt see)
cough (was coughing every night till i cant slp. but was healed aft asking ppl to pray)
minor sprain (fell down the stairs. pain for awhile and was ok. but while walking back hm, pain starts again. but was healed completely)
presentation (He took away my fear while presenting. was very sacred before and aft)
test and exams (limited study time but He brought me thru)
prayer prep (managed to do it just in time despite church and SJ all during the weekends)
p & w prep (managed to do it just in time despite of cant access to internet, almost lost my thumbdrive, exams...)
bad mens cramp (dissapeared completely after awhile of praying)
thumbdrive (left it at e plaza but God preserve it)

i know He's always there. :)

"I have set the Lord always before me.
Becuase he is at my right hand,
I will not be shaken.
Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
my body will also rest secure"

Ps. 16:8-9

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

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Quality Time:		11
Words of Affirmation:		7
Physical Touch:		5
Receiving Gifts:		4
Acts of Service:		3

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NEHEMIAH METAMORHING...

thanks sam for ur camera. :)

heh. its been awhile i've been updating. haha. been enjoying myself... ha. i love camps. esp, christian camps. even though you are tired physically, there's somthing inside you tt's being renewed and refreshed. And that's probably the thing i need. not an emotional high or an excitement for a few days but really, a touch from God. i thank God for all the things i've went thru and that i was made a stronger and mature person inside.

it started of with 18 dec to 24 dec. well. just to share the main thing that i brought home, that is faith. faith to trust, faith to pray, faith to believe. i may seem to be a very devoted christian, being involve in this and that and going to church every week. but it doesn't mean i have lotsa faith. it is natural to have faith in the things that we can see. but the bible says, 'blessed is the man who have faith in the things that he cannot see'. even though i want to have faith in the things i can't see, i find it hard. so by God's grace, He miraculously add unto me faith. how? through God. heh. God uses experience and sermons.

first, i felt a burden to pray for my friend who's having blocked ears but i didnt dare to go upfront and pray for her. so happen that the sermon is about the Holy Spirit. from 1 corinthains 2:3-5, "I was with you in weakness, in fear, and in trembling. And my speech and my preaching were not with persuasive words of human wisdom, but in demostration of the spirit and of power, that your faith should not be in the wisdom of men but in the power of God". i learnt that when i pray, it is not about whether my prayers are answered. As long as i'm righteous before God and ask, i'm depending on the Holy Spirit's power, not my power. so i neednt worry if she will be healed or not. it is just simply taking the step of faith, relying on His power and leaving the results to God. and that experience and word itself just added me faith. thank God. God still choose to heal her in the end though i didnt step forward.

2 other thing that God used to give me faith. one was when we prayed for sun so we could have our sports day and on the 20th, for the first time of the camp, we saw sun. when we reached west coast park, we saw dark clouds but amazingly, the area that we used, just that area, had sun shining so brightly that most of us had sunburn. though we had sunburn but still we thank God cos if the sun wasn't strong enough, the ground would be so much muddier. only after we've finished the games and was getting on the bus, it rained again. the 2nd thing was this. we would experience blackouts every night after service. my pastor thought it could be more than just things that seemed to happen. he believed its spiritual attacks from the evil one. so that night we prayed cos we really needed the lights to take our group photo. again, amazingly, one by one, the lights in the hall was litted up. 500 over campers witnessed the 2 incident that happened.

then 24, 25 dec i was in kids ministry. since none of my friends can make it for the retro christmas party, i've no excuse not to go down kids ministry to help.

26 to 30 dec was another camp. indeed, as the name, "metamorphosis" suggest, it is a life-transforming camp. frankly speaking, i didnt enjoyed the 1st day. the programs are great, awesome, fun, funny, all positive but it's my heart that wasn't right. have you ever been to a place with great, fun-loving ppl, nice shows, nice everything. you smile, you laugh but it's just for that moment? somehow, there's still this down feeling deep inside you despite everything else that's going on around you? indescribable. but thank God it last only for a day. cos that night itself, i just poured out everything to God and prayed that He will help me to enjoy the camp and that i will not harden my heart to everything that's happening around me.

sure enough, day 2's morning session spoke right into my heart. as the sermon goes... following Jesus will cost us... it will cost us our rights, our relationships, our riches... as the speaker goes sharing about how he grumbled and complained when he was involved in a camp by his own kind will when he can choose not to be involve. He started complaining to God when people are not only unappreciative of his help, yet blamed him for the things that went wrong, when in the first place, he wasn't even responsible for the camp. And God spoke to him, showing him that he haven't really surrendered his all to God, especially his rights to serve God despite circumstances, although he made a commitment to God that he wants to surrender his life to God and often pray that God can use him. it was the same situation for me. as all of you know i was physically tired from the camp on 18-24dec and once back, my bro ask me to take over him in some kids ministry work. though reluntant, i still went. inwardly, i haven't surrendered my rights to God. rights of resting, rights of choosing not to serve... inside me, i was complaining so much. i even missed the retro christmas party to help out in kids ministry. i feel that i have many, many rights. though outwardly i seemed surrendered, inwardly i'm not. thus when i came to this camp as an ATL... i came with a tired and complainy attitude and God know just the right words i needed to hear at the right time. of course it was so much better when i surrendered myself to God again and cast all my cares upon him. by doing that, i'm not working by my own strength but by the Holy Spirit's power. It is a miracle seeing the team unite and enjoying each other. It is simply relying on His power. i thank God for such kind, loving, sincere and merciful team i had.

3rd day was amazing! we went to the streets to evangelise, despite our fears and everything, we lay it before God and went by the power of the Holy Spirit. i guess many ppl do not want to hear the gospel is bcos many thought that we are trying to: 1) brain wash them, 2) persuade/force/pull/harrass them till they become Christians like how some salesman would do. 3) they think Christians are a bunch of selfish ppl who only thinks their religon is the only way. 1 & 2 is definately out although some Christian still do. i think we need to know that it is not by us that ppl are save but simply by God's power. we can't force the truth down their throats. 3 is partially correct. we do think that Christ is the only way but our only reason for telling others is really out of love than selfish desires. it is so more can be save. take for example, if i found a place that gives a BMW car as freebie, would i not tell all my friends, perhaps even everyone i see on streets about the good news? yea. at the same time we do understand that ppl have their own say, own sets of doubts and questions about Christianity so we do respect them as well. actually many of us Christian started of like that too. well, so you do have your right to reason, and that leads me to: right to reason, check it out! -> http://www.everystudent.com.sg/right2reason. anw, back to sharing of faith. amazingly God placed many different ppl in my path! 1st, a maid, then a construction worker who's smoking, then a road sweeper and then 2 malays who's smoking behind the alley. thank God i had experiences with smokers. i have friends who smoke but honestly i almost choke cos the smoke went right into my face! i tried not to show as far as possible... still, i'm glad they are open about it after i told them that i'm just sharing my faith.

after everything, somehow i had a desire to find out more about Christianity myself so that i can answer their questions and also be more credible about what i'm believing. God has indeed shown me all that i need to put my faith in Him and have allowed me to experience Him more. but not everyone have experienced God like i do. Some need prove, some need evidence, reason and credibility to believe.

Well, God can control everything in the world except our freewill. He can allow things to happen, place ppl in our life to show us or tell us some truths about God himself but ultimately, it is still our choice. How can He touch us if we never allowed Him to come into our hearts? "Today if you hear my voice, do not harden you hearts..." (Heb 3:15)

Anw, i thoroughly enjoyed the camp! all the magic shows, skits... korean dramas- rain vs. amos (LOL), da chang jing... and the two fun-loving emcees, my team... had a talk with sara and learnt sth frm her. though as young as she is, she taught me to look at ppl beyond their faces and to really hear their heart... yea. and we had wonderful workshops, wonderful sermons, wonderful worship... more than that, i thank God i met HIM.

and you may think, all stories have a happy ending huh? nah... when i came back, i had 2 days of rest and sch starts. the worst thing is, i had a theory test and i totally forgot till 1plus in the morning when my friend was asking me abt the test thru msn and i was like, "huh, what test?" truthfully, i panicked even though my msn nick writes, "in God i trust"-> so contradicting. oh, thank God for msn, thank God for jane, thank God for friends who chat with me till so late. haha. lol. anw, as i calmed down, i decided to commit it to God in prayer. i told God, "i know its my responsibility to remember and study so i would bravely face the consequences of my actions but please help me to remember all that i have studied in this short period of time i still have... i'll do all that i can for Your glory" so ya... if my results is bad, it is my due consequence... but if i manage to pass, it is by God's grace and His glory, i take no credit cos i spend less than 1 or 2 hours studying. i tried to study more but i fell asleep.

i thank God for the change in me. i guess in the past i would prob blame God, blame the camp, blame the test that's set on the 1st day of sch, blame my friends who didnt tell me earlier, blame everything except me. i see myself now grow and mature in God. My life is really God's answered prayer to those who are praying for me, esp my mum... as some might know, my character had a 360 degrees change. i think it's hard to believe how i was like when i was young. Ask my mum, she'll be so very excited to tell u. haha.

Well, that's it for the day.

Christmas

i got this email and decided to post it cos i think it makes sense though Christmas is over. have u ever heard of how Christmas came abt? well, i tell u soon ya. haven't been on-lining for some time heh...

*:: Why JESUS is better than Santa ::*



*Santa lives at the North Pole ...
JESUS is everywhere. *


*Santa comes but once a year.
JESUS is an ever present help.

Santa fills your stockings with goodies ...
JESUS supplies all your needs.

You have to wait in line to see Santa ...
JESUS is as close as the mention of His name.

Santa doesn't know your name,
all he can say is "Hi little one, what's your name?" ...
JESUS knew our name before we did.
Not only does He know our name, He knows our history & future,
and He even knows our hearts & how many hairs are on our heads.

All Santa can offer is HO HO HO ...
JESUS says "Cast your cares on me for I care for you."

Santa may make you chuckle but ...
JESUS gives you joy that is your strength.

While Santa puts gifts under your tree ...
JESUS became our gift by dying on the cross for you & I.*


*It's obvious there is really no comparison. *

*We need to remember WHO Christmas is all about. *

*We need to put CHRIST back in Christmas.*

**

*No Christ; no Christmas*

*Know Christ; know Christmas!*

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*Jesus is still the reason for the season.*



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Praise God! He knows my everything, my ever loving, compassionate, merciful, wonderful, faithful, awesome God!

Weeks ago, as i vividly recalled
Alone in a quiet corner in the discussion room of the vast library
Sick, weary and worried
I began talking to God:

"Lord, i'm tired. I'm feeling lousy and down and sick. There's so much to do... so much on my mind... how am i gonna have DG later in this state?"
I flipped the Word of God
I came across Isaiah 41:10:

"Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous hand."

How timely it is!
I was strengthened instantly by His word.

Again, i'm encouraged.

Been praying for my sis to come back to God & recently she did. She had an experience with God that's so real and I'm glad. I know even the times when she's backslidding, God's still with her for He said, "I will never leave you nor forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5)

Btw, went ZOUK OUT. Rendering 1st aid. It was indeed an eye opener! Never have I seen this part of the world I guess. I mean, so many ppl vomitting, lying around, drunk all around the stretch of that beach! Never have I been overnight in sentosa before too. It was also my first time going to SGH A&E though I was attached there before. I've learnt much, spending the night with fellow sjab first aiders.

You Laid Aside Your Majesty by Noel Richards

You laid aside Your majesty
Gave up everything for me
Suffered at the hands
Of those You had created

You took all my guilt and shame
When You died and rose again
Now today You reign
In heaven and earth exalted

I really want to worship You, my Lord
You have won my heart and I am Yours
Forever and ever
I will love You

You are the only one who died for me
Gave Your life to set me free
Now I lift my voice to You in adoration

THANK GOD FOR FAMILY AND FRIENDS!!! I'M BLESSED BY ALL OF U!!!

in chronological order (groups):

to my- YU family, esp my dearie bro, sam: thanks i know all of ur love for me... *elated*

to my dearest NR0514: you girls and guy really gave me a shock!!! lol. u all can join TCS... no sorry is media corp... never leaked out a single clue. i really didnt expect tt! ha. but it was great! u were sweet! *surprised!!!*

to my lovable fellow crusaders: whoa! u girls & guys are really really sweet!!! *encouraged*

to my wonderful nissi 1 aspiration: haha... thanks for being there with me every step of the way! *remembered*

to the ultimate sat PKC team: heys... u all huh... though i expected a surprise but i really didnt expect tt kind of surprise! thank God didnt have diarrhoea. haha. but seriously enjoyed being in suspense too! *disgusted yet enjoyed*


to everyone: ur messages, gifts, sweat and bld (those who took time to plan&shop), effort, crazy ideas, even ur prayers (dont under estimate prayers k... tested and proven. cos God hears & He's far awesomely great than we can eva imagine!) really warms my heart, be it in the form of sms, letter, cards, etc. even if it is jus a simple greeting like, "happy birthday!" i appreciate tt! bcos i noe tt diff ppl expresses their love diff. it's ok if u dont rem my birthday... i think it is not the birthday that matters... it is really true friendship that matters (cos i'm someone who forgets birthday easily too though many are my dear friends... im not a detailed person... ahhh) anw, i really feel loved and contented...

last but not least: wanna thank God... i've been asking for a touch, a renewed spirit cos i've been really dried up spiritually cos of the choices i make and the things i choose to hold on to or place more impt.
thank God.
i know only one thing tt can satisfy me... haha. i asked and He gave, love, grace, hope, peace & joy onve again! right on my birthday! :)

"My soul finds rest in God alone"Ps 62:1

hey and other friends who dont noe my birthday or noe but didnt wish or didnt get me anything, please please dont feel bad k. the truth is, it is the friendship that matters... i will still choose to love u & not bear any grudges. i choose to love u without any condition... yet many a times by my own humanly and selfish nature, i always struggled with that... to love someone only when someone loves me. no, but i do not want tt bcos i desire for a pure heart. to love others like how Jesus would. though i'm not an perfect example of Christ, yet i believe He's continue moulding me, kicking of my bad habits, breakng bondages of sin in my life, convicting me & helping me to realise where i really am and helping me to change- to be more like Him! :)

FRIENDS...

i really thank God for them!!! :) :) :)

Micheal W. Smith - Friends Lyrics

Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
I can't believe the hopes He's granted
Mean the chapter in your life is through

BRIDGE:
But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seen you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

CHORUS:
And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

And with the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show

BRIDGE CHORUS(2x)
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

At first i couldnt catch what the song is abt... the thing that attracted me was only the chorus & the tune at first but aft studying the lyrics repeatedly, i begin to make meaning out of it. i feel that the writer probably wrote this song for a friend that will be leaving him. i think the chorus is nice... enjoy... to my friends, i love u!!! *hugs* :) :) :)

jus wanna thank God after so long. it's been awhile u've heard from me i guess. throughout, thr's ups & downs but i thank God He still loves me. thr r many times when i struggled thoughts. thoughts like, "oh no, thr's really so much to do" & i set my mind on the things i need to do. i ended up stressed. have u had such experience? sometimes at night, i couldn't slp. somtimes in the morning, i jus don't wanna wake up, prob running away frm reality. tt was wat happen 3 weeks after the mission trip?? i seriously didnt expect tt. probably, i was a little too complacent when i thought that my stuff was more impt than God...

anw, on sat, we had some community event whr we hold an elderly hand for a walkathon. the aim was to get the old ppl out for walks. got to hear some interesting sharings from this old man tt's really encouraging. do enjoyed the time! then back to church. during the before service prayer, somehow i felt thr's this heaviness in my heart. i can't seem to seek God face to face. thoughts like, "u haven't been putting God first, who are u to come to Him again? u r always stuck in the sin-confess-sin-confess cycle, u r not worthy to come back to Him..." i didn't realise it was satan's lies. i remember someone said, the difference between satan's voice & the Holy Spirit's voice is satan's one is condeming but the Holy Spirit one is a gentle reminder, a conviction in ur heart. so we went on with praise & worship. didn't feel like jumping... anw, i tried to be sincere as possible in worship cos i noe God looks at the heart. tt day's sermon was on pleasing God. i really want to please God. so i went forward. at the altar, i really pour everything to Him, i told Him all tt i'm feeling & wat's in me... i told Him i really wanna please Him & love Him with all my heart... then someone prayed for me. The only thing tt struck me in the prayer was 1 John 1:9, "If we confess our sins, He is faithful & just to forgive our sins & cleanse us from all unrighteousness" at once, those condeming thoughts left me & i knew from my heart, i'm forgiven.

then came sun. i woke up, the 1st thing i rem was God. i came before Him again. somehow, another sets of condeming thoughts came, thoughts like, "if God really love u, He'll speak to u with audible voice, thr's no power in ur prayer, u r so weak, u always fail..." i began to ask Him many qns like, "God, why do some ppl hear u with audible voice, why not me? why do u not show me very, very great signs & wonders?" after talking to Him for some time & being still before Him, God showed me that all the negative thought i had were lies from the evil one [i confessed & asked for His forgiveness] & He showed me that He's always speaking to me. He created me in such a way to recognise this sort of His voice. God created everyone different & of course the way He speaks to us is also different. God even reminded me once again of the so many miracles that i've seen in thailand, & even in Lighthouse miracle service... i began to counter those thoughts 1 by 1 with the word of God. God says,"I love u", He says "u r worthy, u r a child of God." He says "ask anything in My name that is according to the will of the Father & it'll be given to u", He says, "ur weaknesses is made perfect in My strength", He says, "My grace is sufficient for u", He says, "I've overcomed the world". I really felt love again & freedom. though i'm in the midst of storm (busyness) but i hold on to Him who's sovereign & in control. Most of all, faithful & trustworthy...

even wanna thank God on mon. though do have many things to do, still i kept my eyes on Him, telling Him i'm trusting Him to guide me in everything, leaving everything into His hands. whatever happens in prayer meeting is definately God! Then wed, v. amazingly when i came hm frm meeting eileen ong (haha. need to put surname cos i got 2 friends by the name of eileen!) it started to drizzle. told God please dont let it pour heavily till i reached the shelter. it drizzled till i was safe & sound at hm then it started to pour heavily. & when i'm gg to sch for lm, it started to drizzle again. once again i told God, pls let me reach sch before it rain heavily. i trust u... & God did again! thank God not only for ans my praying but He really knows when i needed those encouragement from Him. those ans prayers... it really assured me of His love for me so strongly!

There's jus too much to thank God for that i can't blog finish... haha. even wanna thank God for today's sj training. i'm beginning to really love my girls... really... haha. i actually enjoyed them & don't find it a dread to organise training anymore. honestly, the previous com training... i was really stress, tired & burnt out... but now i'm beginning to find the joy! though its a really short period of time & short of trainers too, i jus wanna give all i can to them & wish them all the best!

i'll continue to trust God and fix my eyes on Him!!! :)

Love iis the Greatest

If i could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didnt love others. I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. If i had the gift of prophecy, and if i understood all of God's secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if i had such faith that i could move mountains, but didnt love others, i would be nothing. If i gave everything i have to the poor and even sacrified my body, i could have boast about it, but if i didnt love others, i would have gained nothing. [1cor 1-3]

Really love this verse taken from NLT version

-Copied & pasted from Angie's blog-

Haha. i love this verse too. I think love is the greatest. U could give a thousand presents, a million nice, sweet sounding words, a billion helping hands, a trillion listening ear but w/o love... it is nth... it bcomes jus an act. But if all that u gave is only words, a small gift, a little note or jus simply a hug but it came with so much love & so much sincerity... even the smallest gift to others could meant the biggest to u! Just like how margie gave me a small bear, though i've always thought tt bear is an impractical present... but i truly treasured it cos i felt tt love & sincerity so much. It changed my views, my perspective totally to buy a bear as a gift... i'm amazed by the change in me... now, i'd digged out all my previous beary presents to look & appreciate & just to love them. i'm jus so thankful for whatever things that comes along my way cos i believe tt it was out of love tt ppl gave bcos i'm not some big person who ppl needs to curry favor... ur results/promotions/salary r not in my hands... haha. so i can b assured of ur sincerity. Haha. Nah... Jus joking la.
Some ppl show LOVE thru gifts,
Some, show LOVE thru actions,
Some, show LOVE thru words.
I'd appreciate them all cos it was out of LOVE that u GAVE.
Anw, I jus wanna say a BIG THANK U to those who've loved me... It's not the gift itself but really the love that comes along with it...

THANKS SO MUCH!!! :)

In Christ Love,
Sharon Yu

heylo jus to share with u some pics of the mission trip! i love thai! haha! enjoy... :)

the americans frm tanesee (hope i get the spelling correct) [clockwise, only americans]: marilyn-> tommy-> sue-> daniel-> rob-> kathy!! love them!










my team (clockwise)->samuel, eileen, sara, me, su yi, mylene, yanxiang, lily, christine, elsa!!!










my singing buddy cum gummy bear! hur hur...






a little boy, captured at United Ministries, Pattaya by Samuel Lim (nice shot! isnt it?)

"What would you do? Will you continue to look on and ignore the Living Water that has been given to you at a price that only He can afford? Would you take it and tell the rest of the people about it? What would you do?

-Adapted from Samuel Lim's blog-





God's creation, captured at Jontien beach by Samuel Lim

"Magnificant isn't it? Imagine God reaching out to you from heaven. It's just too awesome."

-Adapted from Samuel Lim's blog-

"How great is God!"


that's all... there's more... but its with either sam/sara... :)

hello. havent beeen updating. whoa. but recently there's just so many things tt happened tt i'm really thankful/grateful for, though i'm physically, mentally & emotionally tired/down but God still encourages me!

let me look into my journal and see what i can tell u abt. :)

20/10/06
oh i was late for attachment cos didnt set my alarm... was too tired. but now i learnt to set alarm when i'm on mornings (bad example or rather habit but its the truth... still working on tt... friends u know me... haha. give me time k.) oh anw, was reminded to focus on Him despite the circumstances & it didnt turned out too bad. LOL. my CI even thanked me for informing her tt i'm late on my own initiative. she said tt was v. nice of me. huh? oh. thanks. but pls. its not a gd testimony cos being late doesnt glorify God, right? :)

21/10/06
Today, God encouraged me! we had our SMAG grp meeting with mylene, elsa, JC & me. we shared abt hw was our week & God showed us all a part of the huge puzzle. He showed us how He used mylene to teach me tt ministry starts everwhere & how he used what i have learnt to cause JC to pray for the man at her workplace & it in turns encourages candice to pray too. oh & today's YI sermon was really great! abt Eph 6:10-18. it was abt prayer! tt's my heart for YI too... i think tt's the correct focus! abt God & His words... i felt God ans prayers! oh, btw, rem the lady i wanted to pray for? i wanted to give up but God encouraged me thru tt sermon to press on... :)

22/10/06
lately i felt all the excitement dying down... but i noe faith is not abt feelings... so i cont trusted God (cos He've proved to me tt He is worth tt trust). I realise tt the more i feel tt i'm losing the focus/passion, the more i should pray... today woke up, praise, worshipped & thank God for all the things He've done lately. Prayed & covered my whole house. it was wonderful! There was really a BIG difference in my hm. Amazingly, my sis agreed to watch LE sermons, read the bible & go to church! My younger bro played Don Moen Christian Music... they dont ususally do so... my sis would usually either go out, slp, talk on the phone/watch tv. my bro would play games/msn. watched the LE sermon too by Ps Rony Tan. Amazingly, he too, talked abt Eph 6:10-18! Isnt tt too much of a coincidence?

oh. today went LE W with my sis. initially, thought it was a boring sermon... yawn alot... but i was reminded tt thr's a purpose for everything. so i asked God what is that He wants me to learnt cos i do not want to waste my time thr. As I began to seek, He began to show. Sth that speaks to my heart was "1. God is still sovereignly in charge of everything. 2. nothing can happen to me w/o God knowledge. 3. For we know that all things works for the good of those who love Him. 4. He makes intercession for me (Heb 7:25)-> I didnt know tt!" I'm so encouraged & comforted to hear tt. oh. & God really changed my stearotyped thinking abt tt pastor!

23/10/06
A stressful day. Also prayed alot... ha. well... i felt tt God wants me to apologise if not He wouldnt show me tt i'm in the wrong during tt mission trip. Anw, was really scared cos it was a long time ever since we talked & i really didnt know how to start. I did stumbled here & thr but still managed. Thank God. Phew! Oh. i was stress abt the P&W i need to lead then after too. but thank God, God still reminded me tt He's sovereignly in control though w.o guitar. Amazingly when it started, i didnt panicked...

24/10/06
Went to this sjab duty to transport old ppl to a catholic service. it was a gd experience cos its the 1st time i saw a catholic service... those ppl r nice & i did pray for them too.

25/10/06
A very very nice catholic lady went away today. I prayed for her too. I wonder why God placed so many catholics in my path lately... I saw uncle philip (a complete stranger with a green car, also another catholic) on my way to NYP today. He jus talked to me so I talked to him. well, still praying... haha. :)

tt's all folks.

HAHAHA. today played a very fun game with my fellow crusaders. there is only 1 rule. when anyone ask a qns, u must not ans. sounds simple?? haha. well, u gotta play it with the experts. it really takes a lot of brain juices to come out with qns tt can tricked the other party into answering and u have to always stay alert so as not to be tricked. it's really challenging to play with ppl like samuel and eugene... it trains ur mind... haha. LOL. and makes u slightly smarter. haha. was very tired initially but later became so excited! i was determined not to get trick but to trick others. haha... but failed many times initially. and when i finally managed to trick eugene, haha! i was elated. LOL. failure is the mother of success. heh.

jus had a wonderful time with God. it didnt started well. seriously, i'm so weak. i'm easily affected by the things that i can see and touch... i did stumble and fall but i'm glad His grace is sufficient for me.

i tried slping at 1am. i couldnt. suddenly thr's jus so much on my mind. worrying. planning... i couldnt control myself, the thoughts jus and keep coming. i did prayed but soon, i find my mind wander off again. i know the facts. i know God is real, He'll provide whateva I need, He has ald proved to me so many many times, I know thr's really no pt worrying if i dont do anything abt it, i know I just have to trust Him... but i jus cant control my thoughts. i hate tossing and turning in bed like that. this really forced me to get up. i decided to fill my mind with God's word.

I read and read... trust in the Lord... ... then suddenly this verse strucked me. "If I had cherished sin in my heart, the Lord would not have listened" Ps. 66:18 (NIV)

I've always known this but didn't have a biblical reference. anyway, i stopped to ask God... He revealed that I havent been putting Him first and I habored pride unknowingly in my heart. I thought I'm becoming more godly, unknowingly becoming more critical towards others too. No man can be godly without the power of God. I've come to realise tt i do struggle... i'm really weak. It is only in God that I can find strength. Lord, please forgive my iniquities...

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O let the Son of God enfold you
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With His Spirit and His love
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Let Him fill heart and satisfy you soul
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O let Him have the things that hold you
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And His Spirit like a dove
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Will descend upon your life
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And make you whole

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Jesus, O Jesus, come and fill Your lambs
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Jesus, O Jesus, come and fill Your lambs

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O come and sing this song with gladness
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As your hearts are filled with joy
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Lift your hands in sweet surrender to His name
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O give Him all your tears and sadness
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Give Him all your years of pain
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And you'll enter into life in Jesus' name