Tuesday, March 30, 2010

hello everybody again!
decided to pen down my thanksgiving everyday, to intentionally sit down and blog abt what God is doing in my life!
okay, so here you go for today,

thank God i can borrow touchpoint from NLB, the verses really speaks to me in my life- not doing the things that you felt should do is also sinning. God speaks through consience too. Someone in my cell always says, "i'd rather hear God wrongly and make mistakes than to not do it and disobey God." Of course everything we do should be validated by the absolute Word.

there are things i should do, like f/u w fw n sis, being accountable to new cell, ex cell, tim, praying, and being responsible as a cso in sjab but not doing.

Am also reminded of being Christlike- for the Son of man come to serve and not to be served.

thank God for cell grp & church, spoke to my heart (yea, lately have been thinking alot abt $$, thinking abt hw little i earned and hw it surely wouldnt be enuff for petrol, car, studies, house, marriage, family if i have and retirement even with consistent 30% savings. what's more? i hope to do missions and that needs cost too. No matter how i calculate, it is never enough and i get so tired thinking abt hw to earn more $$).

Then on wed, one of my cell mate shared abt her family holding on to a story of how this grp of missionaries gave rice to the poor, there are so many ppl it seems like the rice is never enuff but they still keep giving by faith and the rice doesnt seem to finish. So even when her dad loses his job, they looked to God. if they were to calculate, its never enuff, yet they still survived all these years!

Also, that I should put on the armour of God everyday! yea, its been a long time since i'm reminded of it... shield of faith, breastplate of righteousness, belt of truth, gospel of peeace, helmet of salvation... praying always... for our struggle is not against flesh and bld but against ... spriritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms...

and also to obey God.

and on sunday, i'm once again reminded that i shouldnt limit God, that i must know who that is in me, that i need to surrender the culture and traditions (to be rich/millionaire) cos they are like cracks in a bowl that is preventing me from being filled, and assured me that He will repair what is broken (my faith) and release me into my destiny.

it was then i realise money has taken a hold on me. i could very well psycho myself to think that if i have more money, i can give to others and extend God's kingdom, how noble... but then i am subtly putting money first cos i'm looking to money instead of God to accomplish great things. i almost lost faith in God when i did that.

Yes, the Lord examines my heart and i thank God for His mercy, for bringing me back to His heart. =)

Though right now, I am still working part time (cleaning up a tuition centre, 1h/day, mon-fri @ serangoon north ave 1, earning 12/hr) I work with peace and joy, with faith in God that He is the source of my income, that He will meet my needs and with a clear conscience before God as He continue to examine my heart. =)

thank God also, cos my boss at the tuition centre is really really very nice!

thank God for my bro who sometimes drive me to work

thank God for manageable duties today

thank God for joy and faith in Him again, i felt so released, so free

thank God that most of my request are granted so i can attend church and cell

thank God that i can sleep! haha

GOODNIGHT!

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