I enjoy the life that God has given me and I will treasure this time that I have.
I'm glad God allowed me to be junior most of the time. I can bring pts to shower, change their diapers, feed them, pour them a glass of water, cut their nails, doing a dressing, apply moisturising cream, smile at them, sayang them. That itself is such a great privilege for me to let God's love flow thru me. However, sometimes, being an in charge is inevitable. But, I hope I can spend minimal time on papers n tasks... pray that i'll work faster?
I'm glad also to have met up with my frrriennndds! Haha! God really blessed our meeting up! It's also a time when I got closer and more bonded to some girls at foundation programme. HEE! Thank God for the time.
Thank God for my collaugues too! Why are they always so so so funny? HAHAHAHA! It's really an interesting place to work in.
And thank God, He provided ALL I needed as I learnt to trust Him in my finances. Well, He provided more than just basic necessities. He provided my wants too! Like chocolates! I never thought my parents would buy choc for us.
Thank God, even as I see little yellow flowers on the way to work. It jus show how creative God can be. God's creations are beautiful and that means you and me too!
Thank God for surprises that makes life full of wonder. I saw xiao wanlin and weiguang at outram mrt! And then athens too!! He brought diff ppl into my life in he most unexpected circumstances!!
And I'm glad that He woke me up twice just in time for work. I haven't been late so far in these 5 months.
Thank God for sleep! Enough of sleep!
Psalms 127:2
It is vain for you to rise up early,
To sit up late,
To eat the bread of sorrows;
For so He gives His beloved sleep.
Thank God for the time with Him. And I sing... "I wouldn't change a thing, for there is nth else that last. I've been truly blessed, everyday I spent (with You) have been my best."
=)
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Was listening to a sermon cd recently. It's abt how Satan always used the same tricks from the beginning. Let's see how he decieved Eve to eat the tree of good and evil.
Genesis 3
The Fall of Man
1 Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made. He said to the woman, "Did God really say, 'You must not eat from any tree in the garden'?"
First, he plays with your mind. he fills your mind with doubt. "did God really say...".Look, he didn't say "did God really say you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil" which seemed so obvious that he's trying to add doubt, instead, he said, "did God really say you must not eat from any tree in the garden". It's seemed as if he did not know and needs some guidance from Eve. So, let's see what eve said.
2 The woman said to the serpent, "We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, 3 but God did say, 'You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.' "
This was the exact command from God (Gen 2:17), "You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; 17 but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat of it you will surely die". God didnt say you must not touch it. This only show that Eve do not know God's word well. And so, satan is able to decieve her.
4 "You will not surely die," the serpent said to the woman. 5 "For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil."
This is what we call half truths. It sounds like the truth but it's not really the truth. We will not die physially but we'll die spiritually (seperation from God). It's true that our eyes will be opened and we'll know good and evil. But I wished we never knew evil.
6 When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it. 7 Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they realized they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves.
1John 2:16 For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. These three are the same temptations that Satan brought to Eve when she ate from the tree (Gen:3:6) and are the same temptations that Satan brought Jesus, and are the same temptations that Satan brings to all men.
For all that is in the world
1) the lust of the flesh
Eve saw that the tree was good for food
2) the lust of the eyes
Eve saw that the tree was good to look at
3) the pride of life
Eve saw the tree was to be desired to make one wise
Genesis 3
The Fall of Man
1 Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made. He said to the woman, "Did God really say, 'You must not eat from any tree in the garden'?"
First, he plays with your mind. he fills your mind with doubt. "did God really say...".Look, he didn't say "did God really say you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil" which seemed so obvious that he's trying to add doubt, instead, he said, "did God really say you must not eat from any tree in the garden". It's seemed as if he did not know and needs some guidance from Eve. So, let's see what eve said.
2 The woman said to the serpent, "We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, 3 but God did say, 'You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.' "
This was the exact command from God (Gen 2:17), "You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; 17 but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat of it you will surely die". God didnt say you must not touch it. This only show that Eve do not know God's word well. And so, satan is able to decieve her.
4 "You will not surely die," the serpent said to the woman. 5 "For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil."
This is what we call half truths. It sounds like the truth but it's not really the truth. We will not die physially but we'll die spiritually (seperation from God). It's true that our eyes will be opened and we'll know good and evil. But I wished we never knew evil.
6 When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it. 7 Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they realized they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves.
1John 2:16 For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. These three are the same temptations that Satan brought to Eve when she ate from the tree (Gen:3:6) and are the same temptations that Satan brought Jesus, and are the same temptations that Satan brings to all men.
For all that is in the world
1) the lust of the flesh
Eve saw that the tree was good for food
2) the lust of the eyes
Eve saw that the tree was good to look at
3) the pride of life
Eve saw the tree was to be desired to make one wise
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
i watched a disaster movie ytd, which i think it's kinda destructive to the mind. it's too violent and disgusting. i walked into the theartre not knowing what's the movie abt. i was quite tramautised. i can't believed this kind if show would be produced. it makes killing and lives seemed like nth. although it's jus for fun but it's not very funny. and when i went hm, the images of chips munks biting off flesh kept playing in my mind and it's quite distracting bcos i begin to be more aware of the presence of evil in this world, and ard me. i realised i'm fearful. i felt like i can't perform my activities of daily living in peace. Like when i'm alone or in the toilet, i'd feel that chipmunks r behind of me or sth.
Sth is wrong, I know cos God always gave me peace. I prayed. and once again i realised how big i see evil is. like it's bigger than God? Thank God for His reminder than He is bigger. I don't have to be afraid. In fact, in the name of Jesus, demons will have to flee. And God's peace upon came once again. Even when i'm brushing my teeth in the wee hrs of the morning, I know that God will never leave me nor forsake me.
So, i learnt, never walk into a theatre blindly. And, i never want to watch horror, violent movies bcos it always depicts that evil as if it's very big and these frail humans can do nth but scream and die. Well, it's true, if we are alone, we can only scream and be oppressed by evil. Only with God can we be safe, even to the point of death, we'll be awaiting angels... and awaiting to see our Heavenly Daddy's face. :)
Well, anw, I'm still glad to have met up with my friends at foundation class after so long! :)
Sth is wrong, I know cos God always gave me peace. I prayed. and once again i realised how big i see evil is. like it's bigger than God? Thank God for His reminder than He is bigger. I don't have to be afraid. In fact, in the name of Jesus, demons will have to flee. And God's peace upon came once again. Even when i'm brushing my teeth in the wee hrs of the morning, I know that God will never leave me nor forsake me.
So, i learnt, never walk into a theatre blindly. And, i never want to watch horror, violent movies bcos it always depicts that evil as if it's very big and these frail humans can do nth but scream and die. Well, it's true, if we are alone, we can only scream and be oppressed by evil. Only with God can we be safe, even to the point of death, we'll be awaiting angels... and awaiting to see our Heavenly Daddy's face. :)
Well, anw, I'm still glad to have met up with my friends at foundation class after so long! :)
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Answered prayers:
-I was searching frantically for my bag for the past 15mins. Up and down, I can't find it!! i have to get out of the house by seven. I told God. please, if not i'll be late, pls open my eyes and let me see. I walked into the kitchen- the place I least thought I would find it and it was there. And then 39 came just abt a min aft i reached the bus stop. Whooh.
-I haven't been preparing for games at kids church the whole week bcos of these emotional ups and downs. I didn't start preparing or brainstorming the moment I went down. I went to the toilet just to pray. God, I know it's kinda late but you are able to do all things and it is for your children sake, not for myself nor my reputation. It's for your glory. I went into the backstage, stared at the stuff and got the toilet rolls and rifia strings. God provided the manpower. The kids enjoyed it. I know it's God.
-My younger brother went church again!
-My mum went for mission trip!
-I was searching frantically for my bag for the past 15mins. Up and down, I can't find it!! i have to get out of the house by seven. I told God. please, if not i'll be late, pls open my eyes and let me see. I walked into the kitchen- the place I least thought I would find it and it was there. And then 39 came just abt a min aft i reached the bus stop. Whooh.
-I haven't been preparing for games at kids church the whole week bcos of these emotional ups and downs. I didn't start preparing or brainstorming the moment I went down. I went to the toilet just to pray. God, I know it's kinda late but you are able to do all things and it is for your children sake, not for myself nor my reputation. It's for your glory. I went into the backstage, stared at the stuff and got the toilet rolls and rifia strings. God provided the manpower. The kids enjoyed it. I know it's God.
-My younger brother went church again!
-My mum went for mission trip!
1 Peter 2:9
But you are a chosen generation, a royal preiesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light.
Well, my blog has come thus far and many a times, I felt like I'm just sharing superficial stuffs bcos I felt that certain things is too personal to share to so many ppl and so I'll scribble in my journal. But no longer do I want to be so but I want to be upright, front and honest. I wanna proclaim not abt me but the praises of Him who has called me out of darkness into His marvelous light.
Yes, Eddison. I've backslided or whatever you wanna call that. Basically that is leaving the presence of God and my vision was unclear. I didn't see God. I saw a world of wickedness and without hope, I saw life is meaningless- beauty, fame, wealth, power is like chasing aft the wind. It isn't worth spending so much time and energy chasing aft it. i mean some ppl spend their whole life/80% of their time on such when everybody will go back to earth one day. At that pt, what is beauty to you? what is fame, or wealth? Everyone will still end up the same- RIP. So why bother, why try so hard? why struggle so much? life is hard you know. It's cruel sometimes. Even r/s can be superficial. I saw how ppl was nice to some ppl and then talked behind their backs. The world is so diff from what I grew up in. Sometimes, I find it hard to trust. Do you know what I felt like doing then? 2 things came to my mind. One, to end my life. two, to find someone to live for, and to have someone to love me for who I am, I mean not to like me bcos I am lovely, fun to be with, kind helpful, etc. But whatever it is to love me. If I can't find option two, I'll go to option one. And I really thought option two was impossible on this earth, after seeing so much of human hearts and intentions... I prob say I was depressed, though I smiled. Hahahaha. alot. I have to... bcos I have to work. You gotta smile and work even when you cry.
So why am I still here. That's God's grace. Seriously. You know what I missed most during my depressed moments? I rem how blessed I was in Him, how happy I was when I'm with Him, how loved I was. I missed God. ALOT. I can't seemed to go back to Him. I've avoided church bcos I don't feel like sharing such stuff. I felt like no one would understand. I don't wanna be a hypocrite. I don't read the bible cos everytime I flipped open the bible, i seemed so lost, like it's not speaking in my situation... well, or maybe i'm not hearing and when i tried to pray... it's lamenting. But deep, deep inside I want God... I want Him.
And I told you God pursued me. How? He can't speak thru the bible cos i'm not even reading, He can't speak thru church, cos I'm not even attending, He can't get through me cos my thoughts are so consumed with bitterness instead of Him. What did He do? He showed His amazing love thru a sis. She sat down and listen though I can't even describe what I'm feeling. Bits and pieces here and thr, yet she still listened. She saw the tears, she just prayed. It's really not abt what she had done but that act in itself, I saw God. I saw He never gave up on me. I saw how I was worthy of His time that he would sent someone to listen to me. i saw how He loved me even though I haven't done anything worthy. I felt God's love so overwhelming and assuring. And it didn't end there.
God assured me of His love again today. You know as most girls would, sometimes, i would think how nice it is to have a bf, esp everyone ard you is having one. But I know I live for God and trust that he will provide and meet all my needs. Today, during worship, I felt that He said I love you more than any guy would. and then at the end of the service, His voice was so clear. I love you, I love you, I love you... Man... I was so touched. I felt so blessed again, so, so, so, so (x1000) blessed to be in His presence.
In summary, this skit really, really describe my life and His love. Oh, how I was so unworthy yet He went all out for me-> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA
Imagine if I never experience God in my life, would I even missed God? Would I ever desire to be back in His presence? I won't cos I don't know how its is like. i won't know what it is like to have joy and hope and love. If i had not known... I'd prob not be on earth anymore for nth on earth is worth living for.
I hope the whole world knows and experience Him. It's not abt diff beliefs and such. Its abt knowing the ONE who breathe life into your nostrils, the ONE who loved you.
But you are a chosen generation, a royal preiesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light.
Well, my blog has come thus far and many a times, I felt like I'm just sharing superficial stuffs bcos I felt that certain things is too personal to share to so many ppl and so I'll scribble in my journal. But no longer do I want to be so but I want to be upright, front and honest. I wanna proclaim not abt me but the praises of Him who has called me out of darkness into His marvelous light.
Yes, Eddison. I've backslided or whatever you wanna call that. Basically that is leaving the presence of God and my vision was unclear. I didn't see God. I saw a world of wickedness and without hope, I saw life is meaningless- beauty, fame, wealth, power is like chasing aft the wind. It isn't worth spending so much time and energy chasing aft it. i mean some ppl spend their whole life/80% of their time on such when everybody will go back to earth one day. At that pt, what is beauty to you? what is fame, or wealth? Everyone will still end up the same- RIP. So why bother, why try so hard? why struggle so much? life is hard you know. It's cruel sometimes. Even r/s can be superficial. I saw how ppl was nice to some ppl and then talked behind their backs. The world is so diff from what I grew up in. Sometimes, I find it hard to trust. Do you know what I felt like doing then? 2 things came to my mind. One, to end my life. two, to find someone to live for, and to have someone to love me for who I am, I mean not to like me bcos I am lovely, fun to be with, kind helpful, etc. But whatever it is to love me. If I can't find option two, I'll go to option one. And I really thought option two was impossible on this earth, after seeing so much of human hearts and intentions... I prob say I was depressed, though I smiled. Hahahaha. alot. I have to... bcos I have to work. You gotta smile and work even when you cry.
So why am I still here. That's God's grace. Seriously. You know what I missed most during my depressed moments? I rem how blessed I was in Him, how happy I was when I'm with Him, how loved I was. I missed God. ALOT. I can't seemed to go back to Him. I've avoided church bcos I don't feel like sharing such stuff. I felt like no one would understand. I don't wanna be a hypocrite. I don't read the bible cos everytime I flipped open the bible, i seemed so lost, like it's not speaking in my situation... well, or maybe i'm not hearing and when i tried to pray... it's lamenting. But deep, deep inside I want God... I want Him.
And I told you God pursued me. How? He can't speak thru the bible cos i'm not even reading, He can't speak thru church, cos I'm not even attending, He can't get through me cos my thoughts are so consumed with bitterness instead of Him. What did He do? He showed His amazing love thru a sis. She sat down and listen though I can't even describe what I'm feeling. Bits and pieces here and thr, yet she still listened. She saw the tears, she just prayed. It's really not abt what she had done but that act in itself, I saw God. I saw He never gave up on me. I saw how I was worthy of His time that he would sent someone to listen to me. i saw how He loved me even though I haven't done anything worthy. I felt God's love so overwhelming and assuring. And it didn't end there.
God assured me of His love again today. You know as most girls would, sometimes, i would think how nice it is to have a bf, esp everyone ard you is having one. But I know I live for God and trust that he will provide and meet all my needs. Today, during worship, I felt that He said I love you more than any guy would. and then at the end of the service, His voice was so clear. I love you, I love you, I love you... Man... I was so touched. I felt so blessed again, so, so, so, so (x1000) blessed to be in His presence.
In summary, this skit really, really describe my life and His love. Oh, how I was so unworthy yet He went all out for me-> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA
Imagine if I never experience God in my life, would I even missed God? Would I ever desire to be back in His presence? I won't cos I don't know how its is like. i won't know what it is like to have joy and hope and love. If i had not known... I'd prob not be on earth anymore for nth on earth is worth living for.
I hope the whole world knows and experience Him. It's not abt diff beliefs and such. Its abt knowing the ONE who breathe life into your nostrils, the ONE who loved you.
Friday, September 19, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
I'm glad that God hasnt leave me nor forsake me during this period of time when i've allowed unholiness to set in in my life. In fact, He pursues me and loved me. Im touched. There was a period of time, not long ago when I find that everything is so so meaningless. I felt so, so, so, so tired of life. It's those subtle little sins that took captive of my thoughts that causes me to loose my focus, like being envious of what other ppl may have? Really wished I could do my work efficiently, wished i could multi-task well like how some ppl could. I felt I can't meet the expectations of my superiors even though I tried. I didn't trust Him that all things work for the good of those who loved Him and are called acc to His good purpose. But He never gives up on me. The Healthcare family meeting was God-sent, and just in His timing, i'm morning shift. Serena and Carol could go together with me is His divine appt, and the team meet, the prayers and huihui... thank you God... I can't thank you enough. Indeed, it is your love that restores me. Living for you is the only meaningful thing to do because one day everything is gonna go but You and Your word will stand forever. That's all that matters.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Complete - Parachute Band
Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again
So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears.
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And I pray I will hold on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in You
Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again
So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears.
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And I pray I will hold on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in You
Encouragement
How many times have I broken Your heart,
Still You forgive if only I ask...
Countless times, I know.
But His overwhelming grace and love never fails to draw me back to Him.
Even in those times when I'm most away from Him.
I saw how He graciously saved me from stupid mistakes that could have cost me so much trouble.
The times when I always have food to bring to work.
The times when I woke up just in time for work, even when I switched off my alarm.
He still ans my prayers- re: my bro, my mom, my work matters.
I've had enough for this month
He encouraged me thru the Healthcare meeting.
He is still faithful even when I'm not.
But I'm coming back...
Back to Your heart.
Thank You Lord.
Still You forgive if only I ask...
Countless times, I know.
But His overwhelming grace and love never fails to draw me back to Him.
Even in those times when I'm most away from Him.
I saw how He graciously saved me from stupid mistakes that could have cost me so much trouble.
The times when I always have food to bring to work.
The times when I woke up just in time for work, even when I switched off my alarm.
He still ans my prayers- re: my bro, my mom, my work matters.
I've had enough for this month
He encouraged me thru the Healthcare meeting.
He is still faithful even when I'm not.
But I'm coming back...
Back to Your heart.
Thank You Lord.
Sunday, September 07, 2008
hey ppl, found this (http://www.smilegodlovesyou.org/GodLovesYou.html) interesting site when I googled, "smile, God loves you!"
Hello sara, it's nice to hear from you again! yea. marshmallow, I was in the midst of clearing my room and saw so many of your handmade gifts and notes that you have encouraged me with. It just made me smile widely. :) It's just a blessing having you.
Sarizan, haha, yea, same here. Miss you! :)
Davin, His thoughts are always higher than ours. I trust in His timings. :)
Miss you guys loaddds too!!
Xue Er: Sure! we can always meet up at NYP! :)
Hello sara, it's nice to hear from you again! yea. marshmallow, I was in the midst of clearing my room and saw so many of your handmade gifts and notes that you have encouraged me with. It just made me smile widely. :) It's just a blessing having you.
Sarizan, haha, yea, same here. Miss you! :)
Davin, His thoughts are always higher than ours. I trust in His timings. :)
Miss you guys loaddds too!!
Xue Er: Sure! we can always meet up at NYP! :)
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