What can we give that You have not given
And what do we have that is not already Yours
All we posees are this life we're living
And that's what we give to Your Lord
Sometimes its easy to forget that:
The 4 prawns that I caught
The praises of beauty, cuteness and being nice
Money
Time
I thought they are mine
But it fact, they are Yours and I'm a steward of them
All glory goes back to God, my creator, the giver of all good things.
I want to be a good steward, to use them wisely, to use them for the more impt things in life.
Seek first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added unto you.
Matthew 6:33
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
no swine!
Thank God my dad dont have swine.
Haha, I think he got scared by my remarks that he went to have a test.
LOL.
and his bld results were normal.
And yay! my dad came back from canada. =)
Psalms 91:1
Those who dwell in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty
I fear many things. Thrice, this verse comforted me this week. I feel secure in Him.
Haha, I think he got scared by my remarks that he went to have a test.
LOL.
and his bld results were normal.
And yay! my dad came back from canada. =)
Psalms 91:1
Those who dwell in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty
I fear many things. Thrice, this verse comforted me this week. I feel secure in Him.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Laziness
I was dreading to wake up today when I was reminded by a verse I memorised sometime ago and I saw it again in the toilet ytd (sometimes its gd pasting things in front of the toilet bowl)
Ecc 10:18
Because of laziness, a house decays and through idleness of hands, a house leaks.
I jumped out of the sofa and started my day. =) Hahaha.
Ecc 10:18
Because of laziness, a house decays and through idleness of hands, a house leaks.
I jumped out of the sofa and started my day. =) Hahaha.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
i like blogging cos i will re read it but i seldom read my dairies cos of my handwritings and too many of them.
A sudden revelation came as i listened to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4OfhL6dyQpM&feature=PlayList&p=9BCEBEA9EC0E22AF&index=0&playnext=1
I've been running to the things that Person can give and not the Person Himself.
I've been running to healing, but not the Healer.
I've been running to sleep and time for myself (I thought I'm resting), but not the Person who will cause me to rest.
I've been running after owning things, but not my Inheritance.
I've been running after food, water and money but not My Provider
I've been running after love, but not Love
I've been running after grace, but not Grace
I see it now.
=)
That was meant for myself but this entry is meant for my friends:
Can we go kopitiam next time instead of restuarants or cafes?
This doesnt mean I think the meetup is not an important one. The meetup is important but the place is not important, the person that I'm meeting with is. It's your presence that matters not the place.
For one reason or another I've bcome more "aunty" in some sense while learning to live independantly, taking care of the home, the bills, my bro allowance and the groceries. I learn to spend within my means but sometimes bcos of my weakness (like waking up late, I take cab to work). All the more, I need to be thrifty while I work on my weaknesses. I still tend to have the nature of giving but its so much lesser now, within my means. I have to control my expenses now and be disciplined, though I really wanna go nice places with ppl.
And I know my friends are all very kind and have the nature of giving as well. But I just dont like to see ppl giving me things that I feel its not worth the money. Like a cup of coffee for seven dollars? You digest it and it bcomes... Its not the coffee I enjoy, its your presence and you've given that. Youve given something precious, your time and yourself. Thats really enough, for me =)
Hope you understand.
A sudden revelation came as i listened to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4OfhL6dyQpM&feature=PlayList&p=9BCEBEA9EC0E22AF&index=0&playnext=1
I've been running to the things that Person can give and not the Person Himself.
I've been running to healing, but not the Healer.
I've been running to sleep and time for myself (I thought I'm resting), but not the Person who will cause me to rest.
I've been running after owning things, but not my Inheritance.
I've been running after food, water and money but not My Provider
I've been running after love, but not Love
I've been running after grace, but not Grace
I see it now.
=)
That was meant for myself but this entry is meant for my friends:
Can we go kopitiam next time instead of restuarants or cafes?
This doesnt mean I think the meetup is not an important one. The meetup is important but the place is not important, the person that I'm meeting with is. It's your presence that matters not the place.
For one reason or another I've bcome more "aunty" in some sense while learning to live independantly, taking care of the home, the bills, my bro allowance and the groceries. I learn to spend within my means but sometimes bcos of my weakness (like waking up late, I take cab to work). All the more, I need to be thrifty while I work on my weaknesses. I still tend to have the nature of giving but its so much lesser now, within my means. I have to control my expenses now and be disciplined, though I really wanna go nice places with ppl.
And I know my friends are all very kind and have the nature of giving as well. But I just dont like to see ppl giving me things that I feel its not worth the money. Like a cup of coffee for seven dollars? You digest it and it bcomes... Its not the coffee I enjoy, its your presence and you've given that. Youve given something precious, your time and yourself. Thats really enough, for me =)
Hope you understand.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Knowing i'm like a baby is part and parcel of growing up right?
Only can an adult feel like that right?
Can a baby says I'm too baby-ish?
I dont think so.
Prob I'm an adult but act like a baby.
I make expectations in r/s, in ppl or even God, and when they dont happen I get dissapointed.
Isnt that like a baby, always reaching my hands and recieving? And when people dont give you what they want you feel they dont love you?
Even the most sure and steadfast love I can doubt, but You are always patient and merciful to show me You still love me.
God, I think you are very hurt by my attitude sometimes. I seemed to be always asking you for this and that but not making any effort to love you like not taking time to develop that r/s with you. I think I probably irritaed you many times. Like, sinning against you and still have the cheek to ask you for this and that. Knew you are merciful but I took advantage of that. I think I'm not a good person. I dont see any good in me.
Yet, you've always chased after me with unfailing love.
How can that be?
How true this song is...
"Nothing you can do, to make Him love you more
And nothing you have done, could make Him close the door.
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son, everything was done so you would come.
Broken hearts, broken lives, He will take them all..."
Indeed,
Your grace has found me just as I am, empty handed but alive in Your hands...
I want to stop being a baby and always recieve but as much as I recieved Your sure and steadfast love, may I give as well. May I be patient and merciful as You are.
I want to chase after You.
Only can an adult feel like that right?
Can a baby says I'm too baby-ish?
I dont think so.
Prob I'm an adult but act like a baby.
I make expectations in r/s, in ppl or even God, and when they dont happen I get dissapointed.
Isnt that like a baby, always reaching my hands and recieving? And when people dont give you what they want you feel they dont love you?
Even the most sure and steadfast love I can doubt, but You are always patient and merciful to show me You still love me.
God, I think you are very hurt by my attitude sometimes. I seemed to be always asking you for this and that but not making any effort to love you like not taking time to develop that r/s with you. I think I probably irritaed you many times. Like, sinning against you and still have the cheek to ask you for this and that. Knew you are merciful but I took advantage of that. I think I'm not a good person. I dont see any good in me.
Yet, you've always chased after me with unfailing love.
How can that be?
How true this song is...
"Nothing you can do, to make Him love you more
And nothing you have done, could make Him close the door.
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son, everything was done so you would come.
Broken hearts, broken lives, He will take them all..."
Indeed,
Your grace has found me just as I am, empty handed but alive in Your hands...
I want to stop being a baby and always recieve but as much as I recieved Your sure and steadfast love, may I give as well. May I be patient and merciful as You are.
I want to chase after You.
After some thoughts, I decided that even if I were to be angry with someone in the furure, I will still not express my anger towards the person until i can rationalise and logically judge the whole matter better when i'm cooled. I have to first remove the log in my eye to see the speck of dust in other ppl's eye, which means to say, I can't always think that the other person wronged me, I have to scrutinize myself first to get a clearer pic cos most of the time, we dont. I believe this is not being hypocritical bcos being a hypocrite is a person who feigns some desirable or publicly approved attitude (which i think i am ytd) but next time my intention shall not be to feign to be desirable but instead, it is to rationalise things so that i will not speak out of anger but of love.
I think its not about what you do that is right or wrong but its about why you are doing what you are doing, your heart intentions that matters.
I think its not about what you do that is right or wrong but its about why you are doing what you are doing, your heart intentions that matters.
Monday, May 11, 2009
dear taggers, i feel so warm coming here cos of ur taggs sometimes.
dwl: :)
yunz: its meaningful too. glad u enjoyed it =)
Proverbs 3:12
because the LORD disciplines those he loves,
as a father the son he delights in.
had a bad day today. was being showered with scoldings but beyond that, i realised many things (maybe i've realised them long ago but wasnt that bothered abt it till it hurts).
truth hurts, (not that i agree everything tt my boss scold me abt)
but i can have 2 reactions.
1. everyone is doing it! why am i the only one being scolded! (which i did initially). i really felt like my boss was biased (maybe or maybe not)!
or
2. thank God for not leaving me where i am.
truth #1 i dont have much structure in my life.
say, messiness- its so evident in my room now.
being late- likes to off the alarm n slp.
passivity- not taking initiatives.
lack of discipline- cant follow thru things.
why can't i have more self-disciplined?
i guess its just an area i have to learn and grow in.
I want to grow in discipline.
truth #2 i realise i can act so well sometimes (in other words hypocritical- i dont like that!)
like, i'm so hurt and angry but i can still talk to the person like i'm not affected (although sometimes its wise, i feel, not to say anything or react till you've processed thru. You wont want your emotions to get the better of you. When you speak, its wiser to say it out of love.).
i was crying halfway, picked up the phone and naturally stopped crying
why can't i be real?
mayb i'm afraid of being labelled as a cry baby or over-sensitive which ppl have always commented since my childhood. i dont want to be!
mayb i feel that even if i cry in front of others, they cant really undertsand cos they're not in it or not me. they may think its jus a small prob, its hard and tiring for them to see me cry so often at lil things.
mayb its an issue of acceptance. mayb its an issue of trust.
Even so, i do cry alot... when its beyond my control... like when the balloon burst and really, dont have to be bothered by it, cos I wont cry for a lifetime, haha, its okay. And most of the time, I'll really think its a small issue actually.
I want to grow in Truth.
truth #3 bended principles to fit in
i told myself i would never put anyone down behind his/her back, even if its the truth but i jus did. It's hard when you also agree with what your friends have to say abt him/her.
why can't i rather be straight forward?
mayb i'm not so close to the person and bcos truth really hurts, its hard to tell. mayb i havent find the appropriate time to tell.
mayb i dont know how to express myself well (i'm better if i sit down and thought through, organisise my thoughts a lil. i dont do well in impromptus. i guess thats why i'm a better writer than speaker.)- BUT ITS NOT A GD EXCUSE!
Mayb, i cant love the person? Well, afterall, its only someone who love you enough to want to see you change for the better that they will go through the trouble of putting your problems in words that is not too hurting, isnt it?
Tell me how to love an unloving person enough...
Teach me please.
I want to grow in Love.
So i'm grateful at this time to have Someone who loved me enough to not leave me where I am. And though it hurts alot, I'm grateful for that Someone whom I can be real to, and share my most intimate thoughts and feelings with, knowing that Someone will be with you thru your growth process.
Just a few days ago, I told some ppl that I wanna grow... but I dunno in what areas. Now I know. =)
dwl: :)
yunz: its meaningful too. glad u enjoyed it =)
Proverbs 3:12
because the LORD disciplines those he loves,
as a father the son he delights in.
had a bad day today. was being showered with scoldings but beyond that, i realised many things (maybe i've realised them long ago but wasnt that bothered abt it till it hurts).
truth hurts, (not that i agree everything tt my boss scold me abt)
but i can have 2 reactions.
1. everyone is doing it! why am i the only one being scolded! (which i did initially). i really felt like my boss was biased (maybe or maybe not)!
or
2. thank God for not leaving me where i am.
truth #1 i dont have much structure in my life.
say, messiness- its so evident in my room now.
being late- likes to off the alarm n slp.
passivity- not taking initiatives.
lack of discipline- cant follow thru things.
why can't i have more self-disciplined?
i guess its just an area i have to learn and grow in.
I want to grow in discipline.
truth #2 i realise i can act so well sometimes (in other words hypocritical- i dont like that!)
like, i'm so hurt and angry but i can still talk to the person like i'm not affected (although sometimes its wise, i feel, not to say anything or react till you've processed thru. You wont want your emotions to get the better of you. When you speak, its wiser to say it out of love.).
i was crying halfway, picked up the phone and naturally stopped crying
why can't i be real?
mayb i'm afraid of being labelled as a cry baby or over-sensitive which ppl have always commented since my childhood. i dont want to be!
mayb i feel that even if i cry in front of others, they cant really undertsand cos they're not in it or not me. they may think its jus a small prob, its hard and tiring for them to see me cry so often at lil things.
mayb its an issue of acceptance. mayb its an issue of trust.
Even so, i do cry alot... when its beyond my control... like when the balloon burst and really, dont have to be bothered by it, cos I wont cry for a lifetime, haha, its okay. And most of the time, I'll really think its a small issue actually.
I want to grow in Truth.
truth #3 bended principles to fit in
i told myself i would never put anyone down behind his/her back, even if its the truth but i jus did. It's hard when you also agree with what your friends have to say abt him/her.
why can't i rather be straight forward?
mayb i'm not so close to the person and bcos truth really hurts, its hard to tell. mayb i havent find the appropriate time to tell.
mayb i dont know how to express myself well (i'm better if i sit down and thought through, organisise my thoughts a lil. i dont do well in impromptus. i guess thats why i'm a better writer than speaker.)- BUT ITS NOT A GD EXCUSE!
Mayb, i cant love the person? Well, afterall, its only someone who love you enough to want to see you change for the better that they will go through the trouble of putting your problems in words that is not too hurting, isnt it?
Tell me how to love an unloving person enough...
Teach me please.
I want to grow in Love.
So i'm grateful at this time to have Someone who loved me enough to not leave me where I am. And though it hurts alot, I'm grateful for that Someone whom I can be real to, and share my most intimate thoughts and feelings with, knowing that Someone will be with you thru your growth process.
Just a few days ago, I told some ppl that I wanna grow... but I dunno in what areas. Now I know. =)
Saturday, May 02, 2009
kam: yupp okay! =) thanks
infinity: thanks qi, hope we can meet up! =)
odie: okay. thanks =)
liane: yea, sure do. time past fast. jo is studying in sim! =)
davin: coming to church later! =)
dwl: yea sis, i know even when we dont meet, we are still a big family of God! =)
yun: you are always so sweet. so happy to attend hp wedd & to meet up with you guys. missed poly days. haha, and waiting for ur gd news~!
rachelyn: i'm so glad to hear that! =)
venod: sorry for MIA-ing so long fr sjab! :s
i'm still clearing my house... when will i finish clearing?
These few mths have been rather busy with the housework, rather than clearing my house. I never knew a homemaker can be that busy too. But well, its a good experience for me to learn to be independant and to prepare for the future isnt it? keke.
Though I seldom meet up with friends but I thank God that our r/s is not strained. I really have a bunch of good friends. I appreciate once in a while gathering like huiping's wedding. Enjoyed myself; surprised; reminences...
infinity: thanks qi, hope we can meet up! =)
odie: okay. thanks =)
liane: yea, sure do. time past fast. jo is studying in sim! =)
davin: coming to church later! =)
dwl: yea sis, i know even when we dont meet, we are still a big family of God! =)
yun: you are always so sweet. so happy to attend hp wedd & to meet up with you guys. missed poly days. haha, and waiting for ur gd news~!
rachelyn: i'm so glad to hear that! =)
venod: sorry for MIA-ing so long fr sjab! :s
i'm still clearing my house... when will i finish clearing?
These few mths have been rather busy with the housework, rather than clearing my house. I never knew a homemaker can be that busy too. But well, its a good experience for me to learn to be independant and to prepare for the future isnt it? keke.
Though I seldom meet up with friends but I thank God that our r/s is not strained. I really have a bunch of good friends. I appreciate once in a while gathering like huiping's wedding. Enjoyed myself; surprised; reminences...
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