Thank God for everything that has happened in 2008! =)
=THE HIGHLGHTS=
JAN/FEB: Last 1 mth of prcp. So much fun I had with Fiona Wong and our preceptor! Sushi, vivo, ps everyday. LOL! mai dong si, chi dong si... ahhh...
FEB/MAR: Hols!!! mission trip!!! knowing and savouring unconditional love and grace. God is love! His providence for the trip, Jehovah Jireh, My Provider.
APR: Foundation prog- friends I met at foundation prog! It was great! =)
MAY/JUNE/JUL: WELCOME TO THE REAL WORK. It was a huge huge change in my life that I have to adapt. The huge responsibilities, heavy workload, task focused job, long long hrs w no meal breaks (if u cant finish on time), tiring, unfimiliar routine and procedures=mistakes+++=sccooolddiiinngsss++++++... timetable: work, sleep, work, eat (i eat like i cant eat in the next 10hrs), sleep, work... meeting w friends? say hi to your collaugues n they'll be ur friends, i wanna slp! Swim/Jog? Havent i excercise enuff in the ward? Its enuff la, i'm so tired.. church! =) I always have offs on sat! 2 of my friends commented its a miracle. It was a time I'm charged up and ready to work again. God knows I need them badly, esp the 1st few mths of work. Time flies.
AUG: Nice retreat in msia!
SEPT: Managed to meet more ppl w weekdays offs. Havent had sats off in a long while. But I know it's my training ground for me to depend on Him more than anything else. Church bcame a monthly/two thing. God? Not emphasised anywhere anymore. All you hear everyday is, why never feed pt water? why no routine urine? why never take wt? why pt BNO never pass? why never pass temperature chart? why never check pt? why? why? why? tell me why?!?!? Even when you are free/slping, work comes into your mind. oh, i didnt update wound chart, i havent sign off, i didnt check the plugsite, etc. I'm obsessed with being perfect, free from naggings...
OCT/NOV: Then big mistakes occured. No one ever taught me how to do it and dont we all fill in forms ourselves? they ask what, you fill in what right? Follow instructions carefully thats all... uh. okay, so not all forms are idiot proof... Big paperwork error. Big Hoo ha. God came to emphasis again. I asked why. He got my attention. Finally.
NOV/DEC: Nice birthday surprises. Superb YI camp.

Once I was going to but now I left, I left behind my failures, my cycles of negativity, of low self esteem, of self-consciousness. I'm entering a new season of my life, of faith, of boldness, of courage, of trusting in His promise, of God consciousness, of being free.

Just as Paul and Silas were liberated from physical chains when they start to praise and pray, I am liberated from chains of negativity, from troubled and burdened soul when I start to praise and pray this morning. Praise the Lord.

Blessed sharon writes with joy and thankfulness in her heart!

What Can I Do? -Paul Baloche

When I see the beauty of a sunset glory
Amazing artistry across the evening sky
When I feel the mystery of a distant galaxy
It awes and humbles me
To be loved
By a God so high

What can I do but thank You
What can I do but give my life to You
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
What can I do but praise You
Everyday make everything I do a
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah

When I hear the story of a God of mercy
Who shared humanity and suffered by our side
Of the cross they nailed you to that could not hold you
Now you’re making all things new
By the power
of Your risen life

i am free to dance
i am free to run
i am free to live for you
i am free!

freedom is doing wanna do w/o being bothered by what ppl think.
freedom is not being controlled.

that's why i'm free to dance- i wasnt free to dance in the past... cos i'm afraid of what ppl might think, i was too concerned abt how i might look if i dance this way or that, if i lift my hands to high or if i sway too much? i'm wrapped up in self-consciousness. And the key to be free is being God-centered. Praising and worshipping Him in your ways, from your heart, to Him. That's for singing too. Doesnt really matter if its out of tune, too loud, etc, He hears my heart.

and i'm free to live! Live for Him! If the son set us free, I'm free indeed! And I'm free, free from the slavery of sins! I dont need to say, I dont wanna be rude but I cant control myself, I keep on going back to it. I hate myself. All I need is truth- I'm free to live a righteous life!

I'm most fulfilled and satisfied when I live for God. :) :) :) :)

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JOY and PEACE
in Christ Jesus!

It's so refreshing to meet God again! I'm like an empty cup coming before God and He literally fills it with overflowing love, joy, peace, courage, boldness, FAITH and enthusiasm! It's like the song: So blessed, I can't contain it! So blessed, I gotta give it away! It comes from the inside out.

today i took the stethescope and listened to my heartbeat and suddenly, i jus felt so in awe of God's creation- His masterpiece. lub dub, lub dub, lub dub... it's jus so amazing larh!

and i love orange too! okay, that's random. :)

After attending Dr Dennis Seow's talk on Dementia, I finally know that I can connect to people having Alzheimer's disease as well! I'm quite elated! Well, all these while, I always feel that I couldnt connect to them and couldnt do much in their lives except cleaning, feeding and preserving their lives as long as possible. I've quite given up hope that they even know what I'm doing- loving them and taking care of them. They always seemed to be in their own world... not until I saw how a severely demented old lady responded to genuine love- someone who's willing to get into their world and be connected to them. It's just so... inspiring.

Thank God for ans my prayers- for teaching me how to love this grp of ppl. May I continue to learn how to love people as much as you loved them, no matter how different they are from me and how difficult it is for me to understand their actions.

Jesus loves me this I know, for the bible tells me so. Little ones to Him belong, they are weak but He is strong. Yes, Jesus loves me, Yes, Jesus loves me, Yes Jesus loves me, for the bible tells me so!

He's got the whole world in His hands!

I really couldnt figure out why certain things happened in life but I'm still trusting in His sovereignty. Perhaps its a reminder for me not to procastinate or to say what i really wanna say and to do what i really wanna do, to just be free. Perhaps it's a reminder to make the full use of every opportunity, of every second that was given to me or probably it's urging me to be focued on the major.